what is stronger
than the human heart
which shatters over and over
and still lives
-rupi kaur

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4 March 2020

March 4, 2020
I wonder if there will ever come a day when I don’t wake up missing Joe so much it hurts.  I wonder if there will ever come a night when I don’t lie in bed with my eyes closed pretending that I’m back in my comfy king-sized bed in Easton, with Joe next to me,…
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