Walking through this life, picking my Self up when I stumble, learning and growing each time. Sharing this path with others, sometimes holding hands for awhile, then saying good bye as we choose different ways. Always remembering by writing a map of my journey.

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Too much has happened …

August 14, 2018
to go into precise detail, and as the days ahead unfold, I am certain reference to the happenings during my time with Russell will surface.  To establish a timeline though, I flew to Syracuse, NY on 07.20 and he picked me up at the airport.  For the next 8 days we drove fast and hard…
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  • This was the best …
    August 3, 2018
    surprise!  I got home from work yesterday to this: 2/3 of my children with their respective others and 2/3.5 of my grandchildren chilling in my backyard.  I was thrilled beyond thrilled, and of course laughed my silly goofy TeaMarea laugh with abundant tears of happiness, tinged with sadness (jus...
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  • 30-Day Challenge from Joseph
    August 2, 2018
    I had my Akashic Records opened last year with Lois.  It was one of those “good ones”. She told me that I have seven guides, and my main one is Joseph.  He challenged me to 30 days of attributes, as in every day list one of my attributes, and doing this will reveal my self…
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  • The sun rises …
    August 1, 2018
    more to the south than it did before my SRT to Montana.  It’s surprised me how much it has moved from rising between the trees at Ron’s to now rising above Aggie and Jake’s garage.  August is still summer, but the path of the sun doesn’t lie.  Fall is on it’s way and with it…
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  • I am different …
    July 30, 2018
    than I was a week ago.  That pretty much goes without saying because change is the only constant, however I Feel different inside.  Less afraid I suppose.  I can fake pretty good ... smile even though I’m crying inside; put on my big girl panties (still black lace, but nevertheless big girl), and...
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  • It seems fitting that …
    July 29, 2018
    today is my wedding anniversary.  A day to remember 29 years ago - a day to laugh as I look at our wedding pictures ... sooooo 80’s hahahahaha ... a day to cry because I still miss him so very much ... a day to say goodbye just a little bit more as I look…
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  • All I had to do was …
    July 24, 2018
    say something, and everything started moving. I wasn’t sleeping.  He would wake up and check in with his ipad, then go back to sleep, while I sat and looked out the window at the city lights.  I had stuff to tell him.  Not easy stuff and I was suffocating by keeping it inside.  This all…
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  • I didn’t expect …
    July 22, 2018
    meeting Russell would be so flat.  Oh sure, the first several hours were passion-filled, more from him getting his rocks off than any amount of pleasure for me, but that seems to be the pattern.  Two decisions I made on my SRT were regarding Russell .... one, was to show up and meet him again&hel...
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  • SRT Morning in Malta
    July 14, 2018
    I am halfway between coming back from my SRT to Montana and flying to Syracuse on the 20th to meet Russell.  I go there as a different woman. Self-assured and confident in who I am. Two days ago, I stumbled upon a self-video I took only seven months after Dennis died.  I watched it and…
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  • SRT Room #2
    July 12, 2018
      I should have known better than to say “next stop …” as if I knew where my next stop would be, because it wasn’t ten minutes later and I stopped on the side of the road, climbed a hill, and took pictures of cows.  That’s right, Cows! I live in farmland too, but damn…
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