Recent Entries

• Longing

  June 15, 2023

  I am sure you can relate but maybe you can't. I have spent the past half of my life begging a man to love me. Yet, I still sit here today begging another one to just seem somewhat interested in me. Is it that hard? to love me....?  I want to walk away and throw…

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• Outcast

  May 29, 2023

  I find myself running to this blog when I feel like things are ending in my life. But, lately things have been amazing. The last few months I have really found happiness and love  within myself and the people around me. I even started taking anxiety medication for my anxiety and wow. It feels nic...

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• Beautiful

  April 15, 2023

  I'm just... I don't know. Going through it tonight and so not feeling beautiful. I put on something sexy when we got home but he showed zero interest. Is it okay to take it so personal and to heart? Considering he knows I really hate my body....  

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• The Maybe So Happy Afterall

  April 14, 2023

  Okay Okay. So maybe my ending is happy after all. Just when I thought things were over for me, in walks prince charming. He is kind, caring, and well just everything that I have ever wanted. There are times where thoughts take over and the trauma in my past tries so hard to seep through…

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• The ruin-er

  November 23, 2022

  Okay, so maybe I'm a lot to handle but am I that bad? I guess I'd like to think that I'm not. The reality of it is, though, I ruin good things before they even begin. I met someone. Someone who is relatable and loving. It's unfortunate that I'm far too damaged and traumatized for…

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• New Blessings

  August 8, 2022

  I spent months job searching with no luck. As my money started dwindling down, I began stressing and worrying that nothing would come. But, today was my first day at my new job. YAY! This momma finally caught a break. The job is completely out of range from what I was looking for, but I…

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• The Grief in Divorce

  August 4, 2022

  I think divorce is similar to grieving. At least for me, it is. There are definitely highs and lows. The beauty of it is that I can finally move on and find what is meant for me. No more nights spent fighting, no more begging for love, and well no more carrying the load of…

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• How Do You Love Again

  August 3, 2022

  How do learn to love again? After you married someone who didn't know how to love you. How do trust again? After you rekindle a fire with a man who lays you down and tells you he wants a life with you, but then he goes home to a family that you thought he'd separated…

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