I’ve never been the one to tell my business. I feel like I’m going crazy keeping everything bottled up and no one to talk to. I love my husband and family. Things are great with us. The truth though is he’s been cheating for over a year now with multiple people and even found out he’s brought them to our house while I work nights. Our kids are here and he pays for sex. He was abusive but not now. I know my limits and boundaries. It’s like I feel so stupid for staying. He’s our main provider and if I leave I leave with nothing but my kids. Everything is in his name or both of ours and I can’t afford it on my own. My kids love him(not his by blood) and I don’t want them being hurt if I leave. I keep over looking it. He barely has sex with me but maybe once every few months and even then he acts like it’s a chore or doesn’t enjoy it like when we first got together. I wanna say forget it and leave but I keep staying. Not saying a word. I feel stupid and ashamed. Am I really that messed up that I’ll stay in an unfaithful marriage. I just wish things would change. If I was hearing this from someone else I know what I would tell them but why can’t I take my own advice. I Love him and he’s a great dad and provider but why can’t he be faithful.