Addiction is an ugly thing. It turns someone you have known since you were 13 into a complete stranger. It turns someone who is good and smart and kind into someone who manipulates and lies and says hurtful things. And you find yourself fighting for this person because you want to believe that the real them is still in there somewhere, but no matter what you do or say they keep stumbling backwards. They tell you they are grateful you’ve stuck around when no one else has. They tell you that they are getting better. They tell you anything to keep you believing in them so that they have your support. So that you’ll buy them food and clothing and help them get that job interview. They make a big leap forward and you see a glimmer of hope, only for them to fall back even further again and leave you disappointed. It’s a crazy up and down never ending roller coaster and I’m afraid to get off because if they lose their only friend left, they might do something stupid, but if I stay I’ll just get sucked dry and keep wasting my time and energy.