What really happened: He sent me a video of Aubrey Marcus and Whitney announcing their breakup.
What I told myself it meant: He has let me go. He’s cool with whatever while I’m a codependent baby. He isn’t, nor has he ever really been, in it for a long haul. Not committed.
What really happened: He balked, pushed back and got grumpy when I asked if he could come by and let Grey out while I was in Portland.
What I told myself it meant: There is no space for me to be inconvenient in his life. That we have a shallow relationship. That he would have done it for a friend, but because it was me it’s a chore.