My body longs for meaningful intimacy with a woman. Intimacy that is physical, yes, but also intellectual; emotional; spiritual. It is a level of intimacy I truly believe can only be achieved between another woman and myself; perhaps my desire is so great that it clouds my awareness of and dims my interest in any male intimate partner.
My husband is a good, loyal and loving mate. So then, why isn’t he enough? Because when my sexual self came to life, it was in response to a woman; and while I have no need or desire to find any man other than the one with whom I have made a family and a home, I need and desire a woman in my life.
Isn’t that special? How should I word a personal ad: “Married WF seeking woman for intimate relationship. Must be willing to get together only on Thursday and Friday evenings; respect the feelings of my husband and children; and …”
I am stuck; caught. I acknowledge and am ecstatically joyful over this “aspect of love” in me; but I don’t feel free or able to pursue it, even with my husband’s professed (but limited, of course) support.
Had to dump this today.