I wish.
I feel like life is always either miserable or boring. I keep hoping there will be one day I wake up and something amazing happens to me. I keep hoping to go to work, and something so good happens that I actually feel excitement or joy… things I haven’t felt in a very long time. Maybe not even since I was a kid. I had one thing that I looked forward to everyday… and it was a person. That’s incredibly unhealthy, I know. But it was all I had. And now he’s gone and I have nothing. I feel so empty. So joyless. Nothing to look forward to anymore. I think the last time I felt good was when Chris told me I was his best friend. Then literally a week later he crushed my heart, and now we’re not even friends anymore. I don’t know what else to say. I’m just tired of feeling shitty… both physically and mentally. I wish something good would happen to me.
I feel you. I have totally been where you are at, and it took A LOT to get where I am, which still isn’t close to where I want to be. BUT it is possible. I am never one to tell anyone what they should or need to do, but I can tell you the steps I took- It started with therapy, and doing small self care routines daily- like taking fish oil and vitamin D3. There have been many days that I have felt like wet garbage, and I had to force myself to keep going.
If I can help you in any way- even if it is just listening, please let me know.
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