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• Garbage

  February 2, 2018

  Reading some of my old diary entries has really set off a chain reaction of emotions for me.  I thought I would just read them and cringe, and think, “Yeah, I was stupid.”  The thing is; it's really fucking depressing.  What happened to me?  I used to care about things.  I used to want to…

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• I Deserve a Brief Moment

  January 28, 2018

  Ignore any poor grammar and punctuation, because I'm trying to get these thoughts out as fast as my mind is producing them....I have been going through all these old diary entries.  For the past several years, I have been making jokes about how much my life has sucked.  I do know it hasn't been g...

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• Warmth Brings Anxiety

  January 27, 2018

  I have been reading over some of my oldest entries from when I was in high school.  I cannot stop cringing.  I am hoping some of the poor grammar and spelling was simply because I was in a hurry when typing.  That's the least of the cringiness, though.  I was so young, and naive.  It's…

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• Judgement

  January 26, 2018

  I know what she thinks of me.  She thinks I don't even have the capability to do to clean a damn house.  So many people have thought I won't ever amount to anything.  She thinks I'm stupid, when I am clearly way smarter than her.  I can sense so much judgement about all the things…

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• Depression

  October 27, 2013

      I feel like I will never feel better.  Ever.  Even in my attempts to make myself better or to feel better do not work.  There is always some reason to feel like shit.  The smallest things now set me off.  I even know I am being sensitive, yet these...

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• Depression

  October 27, 2013

      I feel like I will never feel better.  Ever.  Even in my attempts to make myself better or to feel better do not work.  There is always some reason to feel like shit.  The smallest things now set me off.  I even know I am being sensitive, yet these...

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• 09/13/2013

  September 12, 2013

      You told me I was nothing but a f-ing drunk. You made me drive to my mom’s and threw a fit because YOU couldn’t drink. You LEFT me at my brother’s because you were too big of a baby to stay for a couple hours then wondered why he got mad at you!&nbsp...

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• 09/13/2013

  September 12, 2013

      You told me I was nothing but a f-ing drunk. You made me drive to my mom’s and threw a fit because YOU couldn’t drink. You LEFT me at my brother’s because you were too big of a baby to stay for a couple hours then wondered why he got mad at you!&nbsp...

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• :(

  June 20, 2012

  My life sucks.  I fucking hate it.  I don't even know what to say anymore.  Someone took a big fat pile of crap and made it my life.  Thanks.  Thanks so much.  I really don't understand people sometimes.  I don't get it.  Why are people so fu...

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