Recent Entries

• Is there something wrong with me?

  March 26, 2023

  So, I went to see Troy last night.  I'm not even quite sure how I feel right now.  I feel... odd. When I got there, we talked for a little bit and had some wine.  Then he asked if he could give me a massage (he is a professional masseuse).  So I said yes.  I'm…

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• Pretty Good

  March 17, 2023

  I've been feeling pretty good lately.  Job is good.  Home is decent.  I've been concentrating on doing things that make me happy.  I went to a plastic surgery place to have the scar on my face looked on.  I have surgery on April 25th to have them fix it.  It's something that has made me…

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• Update.

  February 22, 2023

  I haven't written much lately, but that's because nothing seems significant enough to write about.  I spent the last year or so complaining about my (ex) BF and how depressed I was, and then I briefly wrote about the FWB I had.  Both are gone.  So there isn't the typical internal drama going on a...

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• Everybody Hates Me.

  January 24, 2023

  I'm having a few days where it just feels like everybody hates me.  I look at even the smallest reactions from people and over-analyze them and think they hate me.  And I noticed that people I used to be friends with on Facebook have unfriended me.  It's people I'm not even super close to, but&he...

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• Popular Monster

  January 11, 2023

  I stumbled across this song about a month ago, and I don't know why I hadn't heard it until recently.  It's called Popular Monster by Falling in Reverse, but I actually heard a cover before the original song.  The cover was done by a group I found on YouTube called "Halocene."  They do a bunch&he...

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• Analyzing Things

  January 11, 2023

  So, I started reading a book called, "Why Does He Do That?"  It's basically about abusive men and why they do the things they do; mostly narcissists.  I don't like to diagnose people, because it could be likely that term gets over-used.  It's thrown around a lot when people talk about their exes....

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• Getting Better.

  January 4, 2023

  A lot has happened in the last several weeks.  My last entry I wrote about how I broke up with my narc BF.  The first few weeks were rough.  More bad things kept happening to me, to the point I thought the universe was punishing me in some way.  I started to really question myself…

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• I Finally Left.

  December 14, 2022

  I finally left him.  Finally had the courage to leave.  It was last Thursday and we had our Secret Santa at work.  I got a bunch of gifts from several co-workers.  When I brought my gifts home later that night, he said, "I don't understand why you keep bringing junk into the apartment.  There's n...

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• Too Much

  December 11, 2022

  I learned too much info today about too many people.   Too much to type on my phone, but basically my brain feels like it's over stimulated from all the info and human interaction today. I finally did what I needed to do though.   I ended things with N.   More on that later.

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