A Love Note to Depression.

All I can think about is the fact that no matter what I do, I am not enough. I have struggled so much these last 6-8 months. I have been so terribly depressed.

The worst part is when you admit to it.

I’m sick of seeing these stupid TikTok/FB etc trends of “mental health education” when no one actually cares. People share these or like them or comment on them but THEY DON’T ACTUALLY CARE. Not for anyone but themselves.

The people who watch or share this shit to seem relevant see people struggle yet they do not ask “are you okay” or “what can I do”? They say, “you are too depressing to be around” and “you only come to me when you want to complain”.

These wannabe support people do not know how much they mean.

Yes. Depression lasts longer than the moment they spare a conversation with you. But that conversation means one more day, week, or month alive.

No. Depression does not go away when you give them a pep talk or check in on them once or twice.

Yes. They do care about what you are going through and want to hear all about it so they can connect with you.

No. They are not using you.

They trust you. Above everyone else they trust YOU with every molecule of their being and their feelings and their hurt.

They want to die. They want to escape existence.

And they are sorry for holding on so long because it makes you so tired.

I’m sorry for holding on. I’m sorry for making you so tired.