#sad

I cannot maintain this account any longer. I need the cash. I will be on Prosebox as VelveteenRabbit. Sorry and goodbye!

I used to think your eyes were like flaming sunsets. Glistening like the comfort of a campfire. Like the flames, always full of misdirection. Or maybe it was just all in my imagination. Maybe it was your manipulation leading me on, like a predator leads its prey. I would've loved you still, if yo...

Today I realized that God could possibly be punishing me for that abortion I had, I'm mad with myself bc I feel alone as I did when I got it. At the time I just started my new job and got pregnant carelessly and was scared. I truly didn't get a chance to be happy…

i cried today.   Overwhelmed with my studies. Feeling like im not good enough no matter how hard i try while also staying optimistic, etc etc.  i decided to take it slow and bit by bit, get where i need to be. Failed an assignment, so i will work on it this Thursday. Made avoidable…

He left at 5am, I've been up ever sense. I kept myself as busy as I could today but even so I had moments of extreme sadness. Something as stupid as finding a claw clip of mine that he wears sent me to tears. So I shoved it in a drawer, got back up and…

Who am I… These days I’m not really sure, I used to be fun to be around.  I used to be a laugh and a first to the party, last to leave kinda lass.  Now the idea of leaving the flat to go as far as the safety of the car stresses me out to…

My dad died. Months ago, back in June - I was there, I held his hand.  My sister and I were with him pretty much 24/7 for his last 10 days, then when his breathing changed I knew.  The carers in the nursing home had explained what would happen.  My sister had just drifted off…

so.. one of the scariest things that happened to be, besides being homeless, was withdrawls from clonepam or clonazapam. when i moved from ri to florida i was sure i would be able to get my meds filled by the new doctor. but she wouldn't fill my clonepam because it's a controlled substance. which...

so.. it's been ages. i've been on here before. then i left. lots of drama. but it's better now. lots of crazy stuff. im agoraphobic. ive been that way since 16. i have bad anxiety and i think im autistic. i lived with my mother for some time as i went through a divorce and…

i am not really good at writing, i honestly i am not good at this. well, even in uttering my words really hard for me to construct. my thoughts when i speak or write come out differently or i dont know it seems empty. not empty it just that i cannot express what i wanted…