All day

I wrote earlier about my usual blah. Still haven’t shaked it off.

Why can’t I just see the facts. She didn’t want me. She at no time showed regret or even compassion towards me. I mean, who starts the day with hugs, kisses, and and saying I love you when you know you’re going to totally dump the other person without so much as a reason?

Do you know how hard it is to try and avoid triggers when you are so hurt and just want to go back to when life made sense? The family in the store. The shows and movies always sneaking a love interest or having a family moment.

I still do not know how to view the world this way. Alone, part time Dad, and left by family and friends.