Loneliness

I know what I do and what’s wrong with me, but it doesn’t help to curb the feelings. I catastrophy. I have no idea how to spell that, but I see the worst in everything.

There seemed like there used to be a time where people would come up to me to talk or women would flirt, now it feels like I’m avoided no matter what my mood may be. Yes, I understand the concept of being happy to attract happy and all the hippie dippie stuff. I doesn’t  work for me. I’ve become all that I never wanted to be. I’ve become the man I always said I hope I wouldn’t be.