it doesn’t matter

Alone, when you’re not alone.

I feel more alone when with others. perhaps it’s the feeling of disappointment when there is no connection. why would I feel disappointed?

I have too many expectations of others, probably myself too. I can’t bare to have no expectation though..that seems hopeless.

Still, the idea of being alone is terrifying. what do you do if no one understands you? what is left. floating in space, in vacuum..eventually, maddened by the silence and deafened by the sound of neurons firing. would you go numb, or burn alive?

what patience could endure the time it takes to chip away a mountain, done only by a bird that taps once with its beak every thousand years

Cygnus X-1

February 13, 2022

THIS:=”I can’t bare to have no expectation though..that seems hopeless.”

Yes. One must be the edge between two things that are not always true but are always sometimes true, see? One cannot cross an apparent contradiction, but one can rise above it to see the Unity. This is Understanding. This is the best Engram. Tightest weave, mithril. Nothing penetrates Understanding, for it is the crystal that cuts all others.

But, when one figures out how to have the cake and eat it sometimes, the Game changes. And as long as the beak taps once EVERY thousand years, we can anticipate it, and find joy in the Understanding that we are already in the One electron field that connects all the Multiverse. E Pluribus Unum. You got this.