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• Take it to the alter

  June 12, 2024

  I need to remember to put my thought here. Direct the energy instead of letting it leak out of me. so today I went along on my kid’s field trip out into the woods and learning about birds and snakes. Great stuff, lots out outdoor education. but there was this puppet show and they were…

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• Good god this one is tough

  June 7, 2024

  I realize that I’m really at the end of a ten year cycle. And how this time it really is so different from last time, or the time before that. And that each time I come to this point I think I can’t possibly do this again. That it can’t possibly be as hard, or…

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• A thought experiment

  May 10, 2024

  Let’s play a game.  Imagine you are now your daughter - even if you don’t have one! Just make them up. They don’t need a backstory - just POOF they’re here! Tada! What if every time your kid ate raspberries - their cheeks got hot?  My kid would immediately come running and demand an explanation.&...

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• Transformation happens slowly then all at once.

  May 4, 2024

  Lately the pieces have started rapidly falling into place. And I think I just need a place to put them. Do you do this? Try to organize your thoughts - have dedicated journals for this and that. Because you must, right? Find ways to compartmentalize and organize to the maximum efficiency. Efficie...

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• Ok ok ok

  March 22, 2024

  Damn. Triple therapy week is going HARD.   I am getting better at taking my thoughts to the alter. Which is.. audio or written word. Sometimes it feels like I can’t get the words out fast enough? But if I start talking, then I can get there. I’m gonna go record a video, that I…

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• Ok let’s try sporadic

  February 28, 2024

  I just realized that my friend M (who probably needs a better nickname but honestly who cares) has never seen long furby.   that’s it. That’s the extent of the thought. It made me laugh, that at some inopportune moment I can show him that and break his mind and get to experience that with&he...

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• Meaning

  February 5, 2024

  God I wish I could just launch into song through text. That’s neither here nor there. I haven’t given up, and that counts as enough. the thought that’s been consuming me lately is, how can I.. create art? That is both meaningful and joyful to me.. while also being of service? (Of service to whom?...

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• Begin. Again.

  January 28, 2024

  I have this compulsion to start journals. there’s something about the freshness of the page? You feel like YES this is NEW and FRESH and lovely! But then inevitably it falls off because you get busy or distracted. and then I feel guilty, cause I didn’t do the thing I said I would, because the&hel...

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• Fall down this woo rabbit hole with me

  October 21, 2023

  I was listening to a podcast (which should really be the title of my future book, because honestly so many of my thoughts are reactions to media) and they were talking about motivation. And the dude said, he wasn’t proud of it, but what worked for him was just a little sprinkle of shame. If…

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