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Living with an alcoholic is hell. Literally hell. You never know what type of "drunk" you're going to get. It could be a "fun" one; you're playing games, you're listening to music, you're enjoying each others company/the situation. Or it could be the "flip on a dime" one; you have to walk on eggs...

Monday marked 2 months, 8 weeks since your whore came forward and ended your perfect life. Let's do a recap shall we? I have heard all of the following things since she decided it would be best for everyone involved if the affair came to light. Including and not limited to: -I love you -I…

I suppose it's time to do an introduction of sorts as to who the hell am I? As I typed I should let it be known that I wonder what my voice sounds like to you, as you read my entries - I like to consider myself an OG OD writer; I had my first…

So today was a good day mostly, but the part of today that made it not so great was when I heard my mom on the call with my oldest sister. I was in the kitchen and my mom was sitting in the dining room next to the kitchen. My oldest sister was telling my…

In the quiet moments of reflection, I find myself grappling with the echoes of today's encounter with my mother. Her sorrow, a heavy burden she carries with such grace, weighs upon my heart. As she poured out her worries and fears, I listened intently, longing to offer comfort and solace. Yet, as...

As a child if you had asked me what I wanted from life I would have given you the following list: A horse to be a ballerina to get married in a wedding dress with lace and a veil and a train. to drive a bright blue car, or pink, possibly with sparkles A yellow/chocolate…

I've kept a paper journal for years, off and on. I have boxes of them along with scrap journals and photo albums I've made over the years. I'm in the process of cleaning up my space as I have been hoarding things for years, probably trying to recapture days when I was happier. I need…

i try not to let little things get to me, but i must confess now that i am simply annoyed. my uncle came in the office and gave me a mean look as he walked away with one of the folders that had been sitting there for him to pick up. . . it's not…

Oh my goodness. A bad time with 1 random tipsy night. I find OD again. Hello :) This was such a safe space for me when I was younger (omg I sound old lol). I always think of OD and I miss it so much. It was great community back in the day. So much…

It's just one of those days where you don't know left from right or up from down. I'm struggling with so many things, yet it doesn't seem like much. Everybody tells me I am doing such a good job, yet I get no freedom. I'm living under a constant watchful eye who criticizes and never…