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Me and benji talked, he doesnt want to be with me that way, not anymore. He reassured me it wasnt anything against me, but i know its because i just....have no personality anymore. I wouldve just taken him down with me. But it still hurts. Knowing that the person who kept reassuring me that i&hel...

Been feeling so worthless. Just my thoughts constantly saying "you are good for nothing" over and over again, like a mantra. I wake up just to have these words jump me, keeping me from getting out of bed, wanting to go back to sleep just so it will stop. Sometimes it changes to what my…

I was in a 5 year relationship that ended in him leaving back to his hometown (thousands of miles away) last year. After 2 years living together, and him being unemployed promising change everytime, he ran away, told me he would come back in a month and then said that he wasnt coming back. Now&he...

Years ago, I used to write on here, when i was a teenager, and stopped during my early 20s. My life now, is at a point where....well, im miserable for the most part. So Im back here, seeing if writing down my thoughts will help. Most of my rambling will probably just be run on…

man i’ve been single for over a year … by mistake. i’ve come to love it. the independence i have is the sweetest fruit. i have so much time, so much freedom. i didn’t use that time wisely for the first 8 months i was single—i was always worrying about my ex, my mental health…

Hello! I am Clover, and this is my diary. I will mostly be writing about my life to look back on later because I have always wanted a diary. I am 15, Female, and I want to be a writer when I get older. Hopefully I write daily on here when I can, but we…

Yesterday I had to report to the courthouse for a jury duty summons. I was hoping to be selected for the week-long civil trial. Unfortunately, I didn't match what they were looking for. I was disappointed. At least it got me out of work for a day, and my employer still pays me for it.…

I'm officially caught up on my life since I was last here. I was talking to Zoe about it. I think we may have found my trauma? Although, I'm not sure trauma is the correct terminology here as I'm not sure it is actually trauma. I tried looking for a definition of trauma, and all I…

I've been rereading my old entries. I'm over 300 entries in and still in my first year of the diary (2009 when I was 16/17). Obviously I have been cringing at just my teenage life, but honestly I've forgotten most of this had actually happened. It doesn't help that a lot of the photos I…

What’s the one thing you want most in the world? …for me, I would do anything to simply have a girl smile at me. I’m not talking about the over worked waitress or the girl who's selling me movie tickets and getting paid to be fake nice to me. I’ve come to the realization years…