#selfreflection

So my birthday was spent with a guy I met while dancing at a band event. He seemed cool and easy going. but he was really touchy: caressing my legs, putting his arm around me. He wanted alot of intimacy from me Day one- something that felt unnatural. I think in the midst of my…

If you haven’t read "Intro to the OC Chapters", I highly recommend starting there for some background on the events and emotions shared in these chapters. OC's mother (we'll call her MC for "Mother of my Children") and I had been together since 2004 and were married in 2006. OC and her younger br...

Today marks the beginning of something entirely new for me - a venture into the world of sharing my thoughts, fears, flaws, feelings, and dreams in an open, yet anonymous space. I'm no stranger to the personal catharsis that comes from journaling, but until now, those pages were tactile and very ...

I’m okay, I guess. I just

How can I be okay knowing I had no high school friends, no college friends, my siblings don’t want to talk to me and I can’t manage my own hair? Can I ever get those wasted years back? Is there any way to feel disabled and capable at the same time instead of swinging back…

Am I ableist? is it wrong to feel grateful I’m not a moderate/severe/whatever autistic? Should I have stayed at speclabs instead of going back to college? Was going away for college at 18 crazy? am I ableist?

I'm a runner. It's what I have always done. I'm trying to break the habit, and have made considerable baby steps, but it still remains my first instinct when faced with conflict. It's got to be stopped. If I was a meme, it'd be a photo of me, with captions above it that read: "If…

  Things have been chaotic, manic, upsetting, devestating, heartbreaking , soul destroying, We all now that I got made redundant? Yes, we do, or we do now. We all know that I went back to bar tending? Yes we do. I loved that job. But I have left it. They didn't give me ANY welfare, so I'm&he...