#triggerwarning

Wednesday, 4 May 2022 I hate how I feel today. I'm in such a funk and so goddamn depressed. The fucking world is on my shoulders and all I want to do is disappear off the face of this earth. I'm sure no one would give a shit because I'm nothing special. The world would…

His body was heavy on me, sweating on my skin, moaning in my ear. The ceiling is white with weird shapes like the ones all old townhouses have. The air coming from the window is blowing at the tapestries on the wall. Has he finished yet?  I told you NO. I told you I don’t…

(TW!! GRAPHIC WORDS, IMAGERY, SH/ED) (i’m not crossing it out this time bc i don’t feel like it) i haven’t self harmed today. i’m proud? idk honestly. i didn’t go to school at all bc my stomach didn’t feel well. it’s not like anyone actually believed me, but they acted like they did. i take…

Struggle Town. The name of my residence. The name used for any sense of trouble or hardship. You know when you're just so fucking pissed off that you just don't think anyone gets it, no one understands. I mean, how could they? They don't know what you're feeling. They can try to sympathise but no...

  TRIGGER WARNING! Let us take a break about talking about Francisco, and take a trip down Mental health lane. In 2015, I moved out of my parents house and into my own space. I was starting college and working at the same time. October came around and I met this guy who changed my life.…

I'm not really sure how this sort of thing works, but I've always enjoyed writing short stories and my previous therapists were always suggesting I just "write it down" but sometimes writing down you inner most thoughts can be quite difficult, especially when your thoughts are as self destructive...

It's been a while. We're finally back on track! I don't even remember when the last time I wrote was, but last October Darryl got a much better job! He's working with steel and between that and me getting two raises, we're finally comfortable! We completely caught up with everything with our tax ...

I need to put this here in case I forget. I do not want to repeat this experience, yet I'm almost certain that even with the recorded proof I will have written here, I'll probably do it again. I went off my meds. Red alert, code blue, get me a crash cart and 10cc's of…