"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
Respite Care, Back to Reality
Kids are good for the soul. They truly are. Damaged, broken kids are even better. I 100% believe this. No matter how bad I’m feeling. How rough it’s going. They give me purpose, drive, motivation. They fill these awful holes in my heart. They soothe the constant anxiety I feel lately. They occupy...
Another Day, Another Ramble
I’m tired but have more cleaning to do. So I’m smoking a cigarette instead. Makes sense. I spoke to Jessie a therapist I happen to really love and do a lot of work with briefly after my last post. I’d previously asked if seeing me was a conflict. Living in a rural area makes everything…
Thoughts of Death – lets just volunteer.
Life. It’s short. It’s wild. It’s crazy. Then it’s over. Just like that. If I’ve learned nothing it’s this. You never know when it’ll end. When one day it’ll just be finished. Yet, it’s only finished for you. So many others continue to breathe. Continue in the world that never stops spinning. I c...
A Sunday Full of Tears
Maybe Sundays should be called - Bawling hysterically Sunday’s until a full blown panic attack is in progress. Fitting name for them. It’s Sunday. I hate Sundays. Hate them. We are now reaching 10 months since Kira was murdered. Sunday morning she had no idea 12 hours later she’d be dead. 3 1/2 m...
Rambling to Deeper Rambling – Enough for Tonight
Another day. Another set of clients. Some days I struggle wondering if I want to do more or not. Other days I feel fine where I am - who would guide these clients to resources if I moved on. Moving on is great. Sometimes I do feel I’m selling myself short. Yet, I feel this…
(Entry 15) Inspired by the Entry 14
i had a different and light topic for today but after writing the post - Truths and Empowerment - here yesterday, i feel i should talk more about the topics discussed in that: Emotional Abuse and Family Scapegoat Syndrome. Disclaimer: This post is a brief account of both the topics and is based o...
(Entry 10) Slow down, you rabbit!
Do you know only 2% of us can multi-task? And no. You may not be one of them. In fact, multi-tasking is more or less a myth. Our mind can handle only one thing at a time. So, if you have been feeling stressed/anxiety lately, you. are. not. alone. Check whether you are trying to…
Bubbling of Anger & Sadness
I feel as if I’ve spent the majority of the last 12 months just angry. Angry at so many things. All out of my control. I know it gets me nowhere yet I can feel it under the surface. Bubbling. It has been nearly a year since this COVID crap and being forced to give…
Awful Day
Today has been a nightmare. Very. Serious. Nightmare. Thank god it wasn’t worse but it was bad enough. My alarm starts going off and I automatically hit snooze before looking. Half asleep I glance at the screen. What the hell - Are those a ton of missed calls I’m seeing? Trying to focus. Random n...
A little bit of everything.
This week at work has been crazy. Not really. Life’s just been crazy is probably more like it. Lately I’m feeling the weeks start slow and then ramp up insanely. I need to start leaving work on Friday to do Monday or something. But I like having everything done at the end of Friday. So…