I now have the ability to read minds.


I have been debating rejoining Open Diary over the past few days. To me, it’s like a break up that I didn’t want to happen, I accepted it because nothing lasts forever and now he’s back? So is it meant to be because he came back to me after I set him free? OD dumped me. He gave a two weeks notice. I moved on. I am a writer so I can’t not write, right? I don’t need him!

But now Open Diary wants to get back together and this time he’s asking for money? My first reaction was, “NO, F*ck that!” but then I started thinking how I am not a broke college student anymore, I don’t need open source to survive. I graduated college, I am an adult now and I have money. I pay subscriptions for Netflix, Hulu and Sattelite radio, why not invest in Open Diary? OD was my buddy, so many nostalgic memories and feelings came flooding back to me. Inspiration lit a fire in my stomach and suddenly the chattering monkeys in my brain are clamoring for a chance to speak, they have a medium, a stage, a voice that wants to be heard.

So let’s think about this… What am I getting in return for my money? I pay for Netflix Hulu and SirusXM for my family to enjoy. And I like knowing it’s there when I need it (although, lately I grounded myself from entertainment until I pass my certification exam) but this, this is different. This is for me. It makes ME happy. Why shouldn’t I invest in myself and my happiness? I have been journaling the old fashion way on paper again for over the past 2 years. I have hand cramps and filled books to prove it. I miss blogging before it felt too much like a job. My biggest hang up on my online blogs was picking the right background image and layout that best reflected me personally while matching my mood at the moment.. and bam! I am perplexed if I should be public or private anonymous or not… My GAWD! What should my NEW username be because anyone who knows me can easily find me by googling my old username. Why am I worried? I am not important enough to be stalked, relax. There are people in this world whose lives depend on exposure and making a name for themselves as a brand, a paycheck. They are struggling for popularity and they should have it because that is what they want. I don’t need that in my life. Keep it simple.

OD takes away that anxiety.  I get more enjoyment through the day just thinking about what I want to write, it’s fulfilling.

What was I talking about again? Oh yeah that’s right. OD wanting my money. So what am I paying for? I am paying for an elite community of like-minded intellectual individuals who enjoy the art of writing and reading as much as I do. I am paying for the owner(s) to supply the servers, electricity, hosting storage space, domain name and admirable computer skills.

How is this any different than going into a trendy coffee house, sitting down paying for the atmosphere with your cup of java while chatting with friends and strangers? Speaking my mind without fear of judgement? I don’t have to please anyone here. This is for me. I am not for everyone. No one needs me in their life here. I am free… free to freely write without edit. No masks. No Ads. No traffic ratings that make me as valuable as my subscribers, fan base, and my importance ranked by popularity, followers, how much exposure I can provide for marketers to market, etc…. I am paying to put food on the creators’ table without taking food away from my own families table.

OH and the most important thing of all… I am paying for a superhuman power to read peoples minds. Real people with real problems who struggle and survive in this game of life. Some of us are winning, some of us are losing, but the fact remains the same… We didn’t ask to be born, we are just here, and I don’t know about you but I am going to make the most of it.

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April 16, 2018

Welcome back, Its really great to be home.  When I found out that OD was back, I was absolutely over the moon.  I tried to find another place to write, but nothing ever compared to OD.  This place just has always felt right to me 🙂

April 16, 2018

@almostblue I feel the same way. I invested a lot of my life into the old one and I am excited to invest a lot more life into this one. Welcome back to you too! *hugs*

April 16, 2018

Welcome back! I appreciate your take on this, you speak a lot of sense, I think.

April 16, 2018

@thediarymaster Ha! Thank you, I think. 😊

April 16, 2018

Aww, you want your blog to look pretty. I get it

April 16, 2018

@iamwilliam I can make it pretty with words that will paint pictures in the reader’s minds far more beautiful than some pixels on a screen. I hope. 😀

April 16, 2018

Everyone wants a good stalking, but does anyone actually need it?

April 16, 2018

@iamwilliam Some call it a courtship, others call it stalking… It honestly depends on how attractive the persued views the pursuer. And a lot of things bread attraction: Looks, money, hot bod. Me? I am a total sapiosexual. 😉

April 16, 2018

KISS… Keep It Simple Stupid

April 16, 2018

To be fair, trendy coffee shops go straight to my belly

April 16, 2018

#monkeys?

April 16, 2018

@iamwilliam 🙈🙉🙊

April 16, 2018

great post!

April 16, 2018

@kaliko Thank you, I like your house pictures you posted. Your turquoise looks amazing and the spikey palm plant stands out as a focal point. Your grandmother’s painting is beautiful. I really like the frame too.

April 16, 2018

I love this.

I admittedly cringed at first when I found out I would have to pay, but it’s a pretty small price compared to other entertainment and easily affordable now that I’m an adult.

That said, I am so grateful it was free back when I was in college. This place may have saved me a few times, and it’s kind of sad that some people who might really need this place will be excluded.

April 16, 2018

@queenofegypt There are still ways to enjoy this site free. I would list the ways but I don’t want to be disrespectful to the OD gods.

April 16, 2018

Admittedly, I didn’t spend that much time in thought. I’m also not struggling terribly, now, and pay for other things, too. I remember this site well, and wanted to retrospectively support what it gave me. I have been pining for it for months, too. So, I guess I just want to say, I agree!

April 16, 2018

I always thought of the cup of coffee as rent on the space I took up at the coffee house. I may or may not have paid for lifetime membership but don’t even care. If it keeps the dream alive I support it.

April 16, 2018

@tunguska I was thinking on the way home when I was 20 something I would watch Friends on TV and they all gathered at a coffee shop and hung out in their 30s so I thought: Hey that must be what 30 year olds do. So now I’m 30 something imagining Open Diary as the new Modern Friends TV show where we all hang out online communicating together.

April 16, 2018

I think you made the right choice

 

April 17, 2018

@d-_-b Thank you – I think so too.