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• Whoa, scary road trip plans begin

  April 14, 2021

  I was supposed to go to Wisconsin a year ago. It was supposed to be ruminant and speculative. It wasn't meant to be scary and infected. It wasn't meant to be an add-on to somebody else's thing. But Hubbins Aunt has liver cancer and he's melting down because he wants to be there NOW even…

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• Don’t pet the sweaty things

  April 9, 2021

  It was such a dumb thing. A "friend" thought to tell me I couldn't discuss a certain topic in light of real things going on. Apparently, you cannot call out your peers on silly stuff. There will be no jokes here. Yes, a petty male type once again telling the little lady none of that…

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• The Rite of First Rejection

  April 6, 2021

  I know I have nothing to say about myself lest it detracts from the work. In a world where everything format matters the thing arrives in a format, I would never have given my blessing. Now the bots send back a reply with a condescending tone. Better to make big mistakes and get them over…

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• No fool’in

  April 1, 2021

  Yesterday I got Wu his first Trumpvirus shot, reassuringly delivered by the local fire chief, and was mentally congratulating myself on the completion of 200,000 words about the lockdown of 2020. He never got out of the car and he also didn't vagal. 30 minutes later my phone rings in the middle o...

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• OOPH!

  March 18, 2021

  Where the hell have I been? I got hyper absorbed in getting my "Trump virus" cure and spiraled down into a hole of navel-gazing that it took a message from my "imaginary friend" to shake loose. That's a real person. I haven't actually gone full 5 year old. It's just the people I've surrounded mys...

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• FOMO ya ya

  February 5, 2021

  Ok, no choice but to get over my case of the yips and get back to screaming at the Dragon. 55 pages today and I just have to stop. It's like running marathons. Started watching a documentary about Paradise California. So sad. Just go downstairs and work a little bit more on your weird version&hel...

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• The New Fear

  February 2, 2021

  January went by so fast I hardly had time to think about anything. Tomorrow Hubbin has an appointment to get his 1st shot. Suddenly I have an unexpected fear. He will most likely be "safe" but will we be safe from him? After tomorrow he could be a carrier and we wouldn't know. He wouldn't…

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• Where the Moon Is

  January 21, 2021

  "Where do you want to go eat?" I ask him. "Oh, are we going to eat?" He asks. "If you are tired we don’t have to go anywhere. You seemed like you wanted to go so I came straight back home." I say after dropping our youngest son off in town and restraining myself from…

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• 8:08 am Train!

  January 19, 2021

  Finally sent the Hubbin off to the University to teach in person today. Epic PPE but him still a nervous wreck even as he sits on the end of the couch thinking up things for me to do while he is gone. He swears I never told him I was bugging out next week for…

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