Recent Entries

• Whaaaat a Summer

  October 6, 2019

  So I rented a spot in a resort on a little lake all summer. Then I spent 45 days trying to learn something about myself. I started by reading the unedited version of "On The Road". Totally not the same book as the one I read when I was 39 and trying to figure out…

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• Now where was I?

  January 24, 2019

  Oh, I was so excited when OD reappeared and then I had some excessive sad and left work and got busy. My father died. It's not like I didn't see it on the horizon but he just kept fooling me so by the time it really happened I was still in the mindset of this…

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• Just when you think you know.

  June 26, 2018

  So I got a doctor's office call the other day and it's his nurse telling me that I basically allergic to most of the things I eat on a daily basis. There are so many reasons this ticks me off, including doctors who for the last 30 years told me just to take Sudafed or that was…

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• Run to the Water

  May 21, 2018

  It has been almost like a real Monday. You can't even take a vacation from yourself and not comeback to a deluge of overly urgent things. Everyone I have had contact with today slept badly. Hubbin has been playing Mr Unhelpful all day. I don't think he realizes how painful it can be to try…

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• Got to Steppin

  May 9, 2018

  15 years at the lake and I know no one. I've always been doing other's bidding and never really enjoyed what I was working for. Yesterday it was overcast and after I cleaned my car and played the dutiful daughter with Dad I stopped and finally took the long walk down to the campground across…

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• May Day is a Big Damn Deal

  May 1, 2018

  Mayday was day the changed the key at the private park. I have not been a member in quite a while. There's another private park right out my front door with the people there just don't seem to be a will to keep things up and I'm terrified of becoming some kind of community liability…

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• I just did the math in my head

  April 24, 2018

  It has in 55 days since I walked out on workaday world. I am busier than I have ever been. It's a little disappointing that I haven't gotten more done but I guess realistically you can't check out of living the life you wanted or 15 years and fix everything in a few weeks. But I'm…

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• Stay or Go?

  April 24, 2018

  Going back through my old OD I wonder if I tried to archive some of it somewhere. I was definitely doing something and the dates confuse me. I'm writing new entries and cleaning up the old ones. I plan to stay but call me paranoid, I plan to back up everything. I can't tell if…

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• And another 5 years goes by…

  April 16, 2018

  But this time it wasn't my fault. OD just went away for awhile. I was having a time in my life when I really needed Tunguska and OD just wasn't there. I'm not going to try to understand everything that happened with that but the Diary Master just sent us all a love letter and…

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