#thoughts

Sitting in bed being wistful yet happy exactly where you are. Like yearning for someone but being too comfy to actually feel too sad about it. And distracting yourself by doing so many Uquizzes because you just want to find out who you are, because youre too lazy to actually try and think about i...

23:04 have a lot of thoughts and feelings going on. i feel like i don’t have many people. like friends. like yes n is my friend. and then d is n’s boyfriend so that makes us friends. and then there’s a who is their flat mate. so we aren’t really classed as friends. and k…

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I'm just wondering... I think there is either a glitch in the system, or I have a ghost leaving me notes on an entry I hadn't writ yet. 😮 I saw a bloody raccoon clamber from our side of the fence to the S's property. 😮 I think that I will Zoom church but leave…

I can't tell if im a main character or if im getting divine punishment for procrastinating on my essay. Also my hands are getting really dry today. I feel terrible about not having the motivation to do things. I wish I was as neurotic with grades as my new friend. Should I talk about my…

Я не могу найти свою цель в жизни. Много лет я плыл по течению жизни, не думая о будущем и просто наслаждаясь сегодняшним днем. После столь долгого плавания по поверхности воды, как дерьмо, я осознал бессмысленность своего пути. Пытаюсь найти смысл своего существования и повернуть его в нужное ру...

Typically, I do not remember my dreams and even as I write this, it's fading. But I definitely remember being blissfully happy and with a man in my life. Now for most that may be wonderful, but this jaded girl has long since given up on relationships and is very happily single. Do dreams mean&hel...

This is a new book. After the thought, because it's not a real book yet. It is mere lines, a few words, that my mind sends onto paper until sentences and entire cosmos of realities can emerge from them. Alone subject to a probability that is subject to my current intention to form and create…

Sold myself short For cents on the $ Chump change, fake notes, and a real bad penny! Virtual insanity, but here comes the sun! The world's on fire now I'm burning, burning, burning. hey-hey it's good momentarily I promise! Streamlined the drudgery of 8 months, packed it up in a wee lil' box. Then...