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Sold myself short For cents on the $ Chump change, fake notes, and a real bad penny! Virtual insanity, but here comes the sun! The world's on fire now I'm burning, burning, burning. hey-hey it's good momentarily I promise! Streamlined the drudgery of 8 months, packed it up in a wee lil' box. Then...

What if I find a new job, that I am not good at it. What if I buy a car and crash it. What if I find love and they don’t love me back What if I turn 50 with no real relationship in my life. What if meeting this person I fall in love with…

I honestly felt fine the day after I got the first covid vaccine... I did yoga the day after (45 minutes as a matter of fact), yeah my arm was a little sore but I powered through it...I had a mild fever a couple days after but I felt fine... so I figured when it…

my dad apologized to me tonight and I guess I forgave him. but deep down I didn't. I got high today and yesterday and it made me feel so much better. it was just what I needed. I only "forgave" him because I need a car from him. I need him to buy me a…

Today I saw a video on YouTube. I'm always on YouTube, I learn a lot from YouTube. I learnt photography and digital marketing from YouTube. YouTube can also be fun, a lot. Everything's on YouTube. Back to the video. In the video, a guy was talking about how we are supposedly in some sort of…

With this quote from J. Robert Oppenheimer opens my evening, although i'm writing this at 00:48 am, because I only have to study and work tomorrow, I should totally stay awake until late in the night and write something that will probably go unread for ages until some bored soul will stumble upon...

I feel like some days like being sucked into a black hole, what with the COVID19 and all? The days get all runny like this painting.. actually this artwork is symbolic of COVID 19. Do you not reckon so?? Does time flow by without anyone really noticing?? Color your redheaded diarist bamboozled. I...

It’s refreshing to have a space on the internet outside of social media to share my thoughts and feelings. I’ve been yearning to go back to my childhood— the days of live journal, xanga, neopets, and geocities in the late 90s/early 2000s. Back when I blogged, built websites about Star Wars and Ne...

Thanks for commenting on my last and the first Open Diary post! Today I was trying to embrace things I want to accomplish at the end of the year and in 2021. And like always I screwed up. It was too much things to do even planning. I don't get it. Paper planners doesn't work…

Have you ever feels like you have power and ambition to does stuff, but something inside you just keep you away from even starting?