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March 25, 2023
I smoked in studio yesterday. I walked in studio with the producer who is married. The main producer I work with is married too. There I was, in studio, with two married men. But of course, I stay wearing baggy clothes and never remotely flirting. I always conduct myself in a classy manner. I mad...
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  • Bae Goalz
    March 24, 2023
    I woke up super early; I slept from midnight to 5am. I have too many thoughts swarming around in my head. I keep thinking about what restrictive Reginald said, “You think by pushing out content is going to get you somewhere but it’s not going to get you anywhere. The way you are going is…
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  • Lessons
    March 24, 2023
    I learned today that I talk way too much. It’s a terrible trait that any Gemini possess. If you are quiet long enough, you will know everything about a Gemini. But after today, I will forever change. I had a terrible headache all day. It could have been because I was filled with thoughts all…
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    March 23, 2023
    I slept from midnight to 7am. I had a dream that I was getting a pedicure and manicure with my mom and a rapper named Blueface. I don’t know this rapper personally, or have any knowledge of his music or even think he’s attractive. But there he was, in my dreams. All I remember is…
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  • Botox
    March 23, 2023
    Today I got Botox. I didn’t pay for it. Shervin did. It cost $98. The lady injecting me said that I needed much more. “You have crows feet on the side of your eyes and raise your eyebrows, honey …see you also have wrinkles on the forehead. Honey, my daughter is only 17 years old…
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  • Eight Day Journey
    March 22, 2023
    I slept from 12am to 6am. When I woke up, I watched a girl on YouTube visit Japan. She has traveled to over 120 counties, and I think she’s about 25 years old (I’m not sure). Then I watched another one of my favorite YouTubers who is an influencer from the Philippines. She travels often…
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  • Closing Thoughts
    March 22, 2023
    The low budget music video went well. The guy I shot with was very respectable. I paid him $175 for 3.5 hours of his time. Now I have to find someone who can edit it for that same rate. The entire music video will cost me about $450 total. It’s a six minute song so…
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  • Favor
    March 21, 2023
    I am back already; so soon. I just ate another McGriddle value meal and then drove across the street to get a cinnamon dolce latte. I tell you, food makes me so happy. I ate the McGriddle basically closing my eyes with each bite. I didn’t want the meal to end because it was so…
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  • Confidence
    March 21, 2023
    I just slept eight hours. When I first quit smoking, I would have the most vivid dreams and remember every detail. Just now, I remember dreaming but I can’t recall everything. I just remember a girl in my dream, asking me if I smoked and me telling her I was unsure. We were in my…
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  • Help
    March 20, 2023
    Help! Help! Help! I’m falling apart! I actually thought about buying weed tomorrow. I felt guilty about my thoughts. I want to beat my addiction but I’m feeling down. I turn on the television and feel even more guilty when I see all that’s going on in the world. Car accidents, murders, fights, ad...
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