Let's get one thing straight: I am not. Lesbian, schizophrenic, untidy, chaotic, psychotic, rejected, unloved. But: loving, caring, empathetic, honest and direct. Please be kind, I will be kind in return. Just trying to reach for freedom from the prison of my life.

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January 21, 2019
It has been a long time. I just wanted to pop in and say a few words. Many things happened, or maybe nothing at all. My mother was operated, she was 10 days in hospital and actually it was more a psychiatric stay than anything else. She is on Haldol now, but, of course, she…
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    A week went by. I was thrown out of the house by my mother, spent 5 days in a hotel, then I was admitted again at home. But I do not want to dwell in those painful things right now. I actually spent five wonderful days on my own, working a lot on projects that…
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  • The “stalking” must go on
    November 25, 2018
    My "Facebook stalking" went on. I decided to look for the only boyfriend I ever had, with whom I spent 2 and a half years of my life in a distance relationship that made me only understand clearer that there is nothing in a man I could ever find attractive. Fortunately, he must be either…
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  • Facebook “stalking”
    November 24, 2018
    Facebook is a nice invention, and about the good and the evil of it we often debate in lectures - yes, in media studies we also talk about Facebook in class. But, notice, if you want to know about your ex's - well, Facebook turns into a very bad invention. A couple of days ago,…
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  • Abstinence
    November 21, 2018
    My exam went very well. I got a 10 (out of 10), so... better than I could ever dream of. Things at University are going very well, I found a group of friends I feel at ease with, I have a job beside my master, I already have a stage for next semester, and I…
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  • Life and memories
    November 15, 2018
    I had lunch with Professor Cristina. I told her that Professor Sara is likely to offer me the chance of making a PhD, but that she proposed looking for a media-professor to have a co-coaching, since my curriculum is mainly focused on media studies. Well, Professor Cristina immediately offered me ...
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  • Prayer to Hathor
    November 14, 2018
    Hathor, Goddess of Love, Joy and Beauty Tomorrow I will have lunch with the woman I love. She sent me an e-mail asking if I had time. Of course I have time. I never thought I would ask a Goddess to give me the love of someone, since I was accustomed to praying to a…
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  • Open letter to a beloved one
    November 12, 2018
    Dear Kerstin, my dearest one, I should be studying right now, but I cannot stop thinking about you and about what could have happened to you in the last... 13 years. We were both 25 years old as we met for the first time. For me, it was love at first sight. It might not…
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  • Law study memories
    November 11, 2018
    Studying media law next Saturday's exam just reminds me of the time I was a law student. I hated it. I started hating it as soon as I discovered that law has nothing to do with Justice. It is just turning things upside down until you can demonstrate that you are right, and your opponent…
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  • Wasted youth
    November 9, 2018
    Many things are over, I feel tired but I have two presentations and an exam next week - so I do not have time to be tired. I am studying, pondering if I can give myself half an hour to stop by here and write a couple of lines - yes. Ely is on a…
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