Recent Entries

• Trust

  October 6, 2019

  Here's a little bit of information. You absolutely think you know how you'll raise your child until you have your child. I also 100% don't care what anyone else says and it's empowering. There's so many myths surrounding what's right and what's wrong. So much so that I want to quit my job and bec...

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• About Today

  August 16, 2019

  I feel like I knew it was a possibility because of genetics, but I didn't really think about it. I didn't think about one of my parents really having memory problems. I have to think about it now, which is not something I want to think about. First of all because the amount of emotions…

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• Welcome

  April 25, 2019

  There's lots of things to discuss right now and I'l try to put them in chronological order, but I can't promise that's going to happen. Through most of my pregnancy (which is still weird to say that I was pregnant) I had a small baby growing and his abdomen was small and he was small…

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• I don’t want to be you

  March 30, 2019

  I went to a dinner at one of the fire stations Dustin works at and there were two wives there. They pushed out like seven kids between them. They're 40 something and very mom...like. Aside from the comment that I'm so small that they thought I was 20 weeks, not 9 months, there was another…

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• Suddenly I see you.

  March 5, 2019

  Yesterday I saw my kid's face. Not just in the creepy 2D whatever they show you of their profile. But I saw his nose and face in 3 dimensions. And it's my nose and it was a lot of amazing and things I didn't realize I had feelings about and you really don't know anything…

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• No Alarms & No Surprises. Please.

  February 28, 2019

  I realize that I am a worrier and I really do my best not to worry about things. Health wise, I hardly have abnormalities. I've never been to a doctor's office more than this year. The amount of trips I've made are for my health, I guess, but mostly my unborn child. And really the…

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• Rage

  February 19, 2019

  I'm having lots of anger lately. I think it's misplaced and hormonal. But I take anger over my usual depressed feelings, that I have not had for like...seven months. There's like five things I like about pregnancy and having been mostly stable in the emotional category has been super. I dislike D...

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• This is a lot

  January 18, 2019

  It's such a weird phenomenon you experience with people giving you unsolicited information and commenting on your body and asking how you feel every day. Example: My substitute before our field trip told me that students told her I was pregnant and that I don't look six months pregnant. Ok. Then ...

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• Christmas

  December 25, 2018

  It was odd getting presents for a person I have never met. I didn’t get much for me personally and I’m okay with it. It just felt odd. It just felt not like Christmas, opening tiny clothing for someone else. Which is still odd to me at 23 weeks of a person living in my…

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