Recent Entries

• Christmas

  December 25, 2018

  It was odd getting presents for a person I have never met. I didn’t get much for me personally and I’m okay with it. It just felt odd. It just felt not like Christmas, opening tiny clothing for someone else. Which is still odd to me at 23 weeks of a person living in my…

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• What’s in a name?

  December 12, 2018

  I never asked to be named my name. In fact, I think it's sort of odd. But because of that, I grew up feeling unique. That made me different from other people. One thing I couldn't shake, although wanting to be unique, is other people's opinions. I don't like to be judged or I don't…

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• Decisions.

  December 5, 2018

  I am pretty good at decision making. As long as I can remember, I've never had a super tough time decision making. I suppose maybe in high school when I dated a guy where I liked his brain and not his face, but I picked him over my date at the winter formal, which felt…

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• A Few Words.

  October 25, 2018

  Sometimes it's really weird that I have to make decisions due to a person who is living in my body. At 14 weeks, almost 100 days of this, I am finally starting to deal with my pants not really wanting to fit like they used to fit, which is annoying. I don't care about body…

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• Things.

  October 7, 2018

  I pay for this site, so I feel like I should actually use it from time to time. Things I think about often: People that treat their babies like a dress up travel accessory. Like your baby is a human being and their self worth cannot be in pictures that you have curated on Instagram.…

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• Turn the world to its best

  August 24, 2018

  I started teaching freshmen this year and I have a lot to say about it. I remember high school very well. Much more than I remember freshman in college. This wasn't due to drinking. It was due to sadness, really. It was a cloudy brain time. I remember so much about high school that I…

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• Oregon.

  August 8, 2018

  When we visit Bend, it feels like we belong here and that we should pick up our life where it left off. Why did I ever move? Oh. Well one reason was I worked at the worst school, with the worst people. That started it. I've never worked anywhere that made me feel like absolute…

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• Children

  July 28, 2018

  This summer I have obsessed over several things. The one that is most prominent is the "when should I have small humans" question. I don't know if other people obsess about whether or not they should have them as much as I do. In fact, some people feel like a child was why they were…

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• I think you’re crazy, maybe

  July 9, 2018

  I don't know what took me so long to pay $3.99. I spend more than that on a vanilla latte with coconut milk at Starbucks, and at least this place doesn't exacerbate my anxiety like the caffeine would. I have entries in my head all the time these days and the thought of having to…

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