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• Checking on me?

  April 11, 2024

  I was casually posting things, and then I saw that my ex unblocked me and saw my stuff. I got scared, and so I logged out because I felt he was going to start texting me again, asking how I'm doing, but so far he hasn't. I must say it feels good. I mean, he…

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• Rip our love

  April 4, 2024

  Having him out of my life feels great, sadly. I mean, I still cry, but it gets easier. I can go on with my day without thinking about him the whole time. I mean, I still think about him a lot. But it's not as it used to be. I still think, "We could be…

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• Pain

  April 3, 2024

  I haven't written in 5 days. I think it's because of the fact that I and my ex are officially over. Even when we tried to be friends, it didn't work, though we both knew that. Today I called my mother; I haven't seen her in the last 8 years, at least. I was really scared…

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• Friends

  March 27, 2024

  He says that due to the fact that I couldn't look at him yesterday, we cannot be friends. which doesn't make sense; even when we were together, he knew I couldn't make eye contact with him. But I knew what he meant; I had my head down, which I always did when we were together.…

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• Tough girl

  March 27, 2024

  So today was a very good day. I posted something on my story that said, "When you want to text someone but the voices say to STFU," and my ex replied to it, asking if it was about him, and sadly, it was. He joked and said, "You wanted me to text first." I said…

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• What he believes

  March 26, 2024

  He believes that it's better to keep his feelings aside from whatever he does. He said that his feelings never mattered, and that hurts because it's true. I never considered his feelings most of the time. Whenever I wanted to do something, I always asked how he felt about it; he would tell me, bu...

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• Foolish, foolish, foolish

  March 25, 2024

  I'm still crying over him, and I wish I wasn't. I have thrown everything he ever gave me in the trash, raged, and even broke or ripped them because I know that I myself would want to take them back, but I needed to leave them there. I can't help but tell him. I can't…

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• Saturday

  March 23, 2024

  It was a good day, but it started off badly. We got into trouble with my mom, who was mad because we didn't clean the day before, but we cleaned, and they had left. We even put music on while cleaning because music is motivation. My dad then came back, and he started cleaning outside.…

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• Dancing my anger out

  March 22, 2024

  We talked today again; he texted me, and I answered. I always have the same feeling when he texts me. We laughed again, but at one point we started talking about my habits. He said he knew me way more than I thought, more than myself, and that's true. I told him about the struggles…

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