8 Life on Pause: 08/10 - 2011

"Thinking about your perfect day will at least begin the process of shifting your paradigm away from limiting beliefs."   being in love & waking up to a handsome husband that's already gotten up and fixed the coffee having a kid or two, maybe even being pregnant spending the day together...

"Write about your perfect day, in detail" I don't know why this is hard for me. But it is. Because it's unrealistic - it's meant to be...but I am restrained by realistic standards; I can analyze all the possible "what ifs" of my life, but what I cannot seem to do is analyze the unrealistic…

Jenn and I are working on a 6 month (or until I move to Chicago - whichever comes first) plan for me. It's therapy. Whatever. Don't judge. I think I have let go of most of my "baggage", but I don't think I can walk away from it until I have voiced it all, out loud,…

I am about to sound selfish and childish. But what I want. What I've always wanted, "needed". Is for someone to fight for me. To fight for me harder than I fight them. I want someone to fight and not give up.  To fight until they defeat me. I know its a lot to ask.…

I saw this posted as someone's status on facebook: 'Real men go for curves, only dogs go for bones.' Not gonna lie, I was a little offended...just because I'm skinny, 'dogs' are the only type of man I can attract? Really? It's nice that you are proud of your 'curves', but if you are so…

I wish talking were as easy as writing is.

I had this talk with Jen. Because Ben asked me out the other night --- I'll explain that first I guess: I was in group and I got up to get a drink, but there's this partition thing in the middle of the room, and it was crowded, so I just went out to go around and…

"You're actually kind of a bitch, do you know that?" Yes, actually. Though I've accepted the term over the years - I don't think they realize that what they label me a bitch for is actually just me telling them a truth they don't want to hear; it's not my fault they don't like it.…

Sometimes I just want someone that I can punch in the face for making life so fucking complicated, for making him move so far away. For fucking everything up. But then, other times I wonder if maybe these are the place we are suppose to be. Because this is how we get to where we…

There's an oft quoted verse in the Bible, "don't point out the sliver in your neighbor's eye, when you have a log in your own"...something to that effect. And people use it, all the time, as a "you can't tell me what to do because you are worse than/just as bad as I am" type…