9 Now What? (2012)

They told him he was "too good for a girl like that". A girl like that!? What the fuck. Fuck you. Fuck you for judging me. Too good for me? For "a girl like that". As if I am some kind of miserable fucking whore. (and yet, my anger seethes and stirs the impulsive need…

Is it weird that sometimes, I feel like, I want to be an alcoholic? Not in a "sit and drink all day and not work or leave the house or even take care of myself" sort of way, and not even in a "drink yourself into an oblivion to have a good time or forget…

I also need to remind myself how silly it is to worry; how often do we drown in worry, and how often, two months later, do we even give the issue a single thought? Honestly, it's rare that what we worry about ends up being "important". Not that what we worry about isn't important, just…

A guy that I went to school with died in a car accident yesterday & it really made me look at life differently, as death usually does to people - it wasn't the cliche "seize the day because you don't know when it will be your last" though, it was more of a "seize the…

Tomorrow I am meeting with Jenn. My intentions, are always to be completely honest and no-holds-barred...but I cannot seem to let the wall down - I'm not talking about the wall between me and other people, I'm talking about the wall between me and myself. The one that keeps me safely on the other...

He told me that, as a pilot, he learned that you have to have gauges - because, if you get vertigo, your body starts confusing directions. And if you trust yourself, and what you feel, you will crash the plane. You have to learn to trust the gauges, even if they tell you something that…

I have this wall, that I don't know how to tear down. It's not that I don't want to talk about it, I do...but I don't know HOW. How is it this difficult, to speak? I can be screaming in my head, but I literally can not even whisper the words out loud. It hurts…

Jenn is always saying how she is constantly putting herself down, how she loves compliments and thrives off them, but can't help but respond to them by putting herself down. I didn't realize I do the exact same thing until the other night, when I did it, to her. She was introducing me to someone&...