No Juice

One week! Today was actually really good. I was at home most of the day alone and kept myself busy with my dogs and gardens. And then just relaxing. I have a bit of a downward stage this afternoon so I did have a Valium. But that's only 1 for today which is a great…

Today was an achievement. I have a habit of every Wednesday finishing work at 12.30pm and starting drinking. Always. I couldn't get it out of my head. I even went to the alcohol store and sat outside in my car for about 15 minutes. Reminding myself of why I'm getting sober and also the horrible&h...

Day 5. And yes I'm still counting it as day 5 since yesterday was only a couple sips. Still felt sick and tired for most of the day today. However I did actually go to work today aswell. Which wasn't horrible. I did okay. I felt sick and tired but I did okay. Thought about…

Today i made a mistake. I spent the entire day AGAIN thinking about nothing but alcohol. So I gave in because I'm weak and stupid. Except... I had less than 1 can of vodka and realized my mistake. Because the disulfiram kicked in!!! It's made to stop the breakdown of alcohol in your body and…

Day 3.... its been the worst so far. I've waken up thinking of drinking. And had the thought in my head all day. It's  5.39pm right now and I've given my keys to my husband so I cant drive anyway and get anything. I've had the Valium. And I've the other drugs. I'm drinking water.…