Year One

I connected my playlist to the TV and turned the volume up. Knowing I'd be gone for the weekend, I wanted to tidy up the house for Zak so he wouldn't have a ton to worry about while I am away. The sound of classic rock kept me moving; dirty clothes, dog toys, tiny messes.…

Even when I have a rough day, I know I'm going home to someone who loves me unconditionally. Who's presence instantly calms me and makes my life better. Any bad moments, frustrating situations, worries, or stress melt away when I'm in his arms. I know that I can always reach out to him and his&he...

I'm proud of myself. I'm taking baby steps to become a better woman, not only for myself but also the man I plan to marry one day. To be confident, kind, understanding, and at peace with both my past and with his. Despite him having more of a past than me when it comes to…

When it comes to putting negative past experiences behind me, and letting go of irrational fears and worries- I find that I struggle. It requires a lot of focus and will power and I am not always sucessful. I fear things happening even when my relationship is healthy and going really well. Anxiou...

You ever have a moment or glimmer in your day when you think about your life and what you have and believe that you are truly happy in ever sense of the word? I have that feeling everyday- maybe not all day, everyday but everyday.

I cried. No, I sobbed. I had so much built up in me and around me, I couldn't hold it together anymore. Not only did I uproot my life and move, and that in itself is stressful and overwhelming but I also lost a friend- or someone I thought of as a friend. She may…