What is catastrophising?

It’s me.

Overthinking.

Stress.

Anxious feeling.

Racing thoughts.

Fear and anger.

Depression.

Pessimism.

Stuck in your head.

There’s finally a name for it all. Along with some other thing my psychiatrist is thinking.

I drove the boy back to school today so the 80 mile trip home alone didn’t help. I made the mistake of listening to 90s country music. I never really listened to the words. There was a song, “2 tear drops” that just about made me want to put my truck into a tree. Also a Diamond Rio song, “You’re gone” that made me hope that when I hit the tree the truck would explode…

Surprisingly though I’m home and somewhat centered. I’m not happy, nor am I content, but I’ve managed to learn how to numb myself and withdraw to quiet thoughts. Thing is, they just linger there waiting for me to let my guard down again.