#autism

Day six....seven? Who knows It's another bloody heat wave. It's the UK! We don't do heat, our country gonna explode in a firey blaze. Boom! This week has been hard, a friend was giving me a hard time about something trivial. Told them to calm the fuck down or we won't be friends anymore. Cba…

The very first. Whenever I start a new, written entry/chapter based document, if it feels appropriate, I always call the first entry, 'The Very First'. It's named after the cassette that was bundled with my first ever computer; the Commodore 64. I have never felt the need to explain that before a...

My husband has Autism. He is thoughtful, kind, driven. He is gentle, listens, takes care of things around the house. He is an incredible father. Yet I feel so lonely. It's so incredibly hard to explain. When we first started dating, he was overly affectionate, embarrassingly so. I was never perso...

so.. one of the scariest things that happened to be, besides being homeless, was withdrawls from clonepam or clonazapam. when i moved from ri to florida i was sure i would be able to get my meds filled by the new doctor. but she wouldn't fill my clonepam because it's a controlled substance. which...

so.. it's been ages. i've been on here before. then i left. lots of drama. but it's better now. lots of crazy stuff. im agoraphobic. ive been that way since 16. i have bad anxiety and i think im autistic. i lived with my mother for some time as i went through a divorce and…

I have a friend, who I love and respect, who thinks that people who support finding a cure for autism are awful, hateful, discriminatory people who are just afraid of people different from them. Because there is nothing wrong with her or her boys, each with autism. And I get that. I can see how&h...

As I've previously written about, my biological father, Donal, hit the road before I took my first breath.  To his credit, he had asked my mother to marry him when they found out she was pregnant.  But they weren't really in a relationship.  They were both teenaged runaways, who happened to be li...

I got let back into this diary over a month ago when TheDiaryMaster graciously let me be one of the later phase beta testers, but this is actually my first entry since then. The problem is: two small children who suck all my energy and time swiftly away from me. There is no more sinking…