#childhoodtrauma

Take me down to the river bend. I want to take a look at my reflection in the water and see if you’re still in it. Maybe the current will create waves high enough for me to meet you there. I see them in my dreams at night when I close my eyes and you’re…

The values held by my father were manipulation, lying, and inflicting pain on others. Never humility, generosity, resiliency, honesty, kindness, integrity. I had to learn these along the way after I was a teenager. My mother taught me love, determination, and how to be fiercely protective of thos...

I am looking for a fuck to give today. I see how tired my partner looks. Deep in his eyes, he's as tired as if he'd fought in three wars. His grandma who is like his mother is dying. He is in a crazy busy PhD program. And I am just loosing my shit over…

I guess we have to be able to name our feelings in order to be able to fully feel and process them. When you were never shown how to recognize and name feelings growing up, the journey to name them and let them out - rather than shove them down - feels next to impossible…

he ran for the kite as the wind carefully carried it towards the busy highway. despite my screams he wouldn't stop running. in a panic i sprint back to the house. out of breath and terrified i could only spit out his name and a few key points, "bryson..bryson.. my kite... highway.." i gasp for&he...

I will Continue to write and share my story and my struggles because being silenced or shunned for speaking out just doesn’t feel great and it only fuels the problem. Anyways, I’ll start by saying as I wrote before, my mother was molested by her father when she was a young child and her mother&he...

Woohoo. I was down another pound today which made my very happy and excited and able to get through the day. Yes started restricting again or rather not eating after 7pm and I’ve lost a total of 7lbs since May 11th. My bmi was at the brink of the overweight category so I needed to…