#cptsd

Where do I begin? I think the waves are starting to settle a little bit. I think I'm finally entering into acceptance for a lot of things. For the last several years there's been all these inner versions of me that have been crying out for help in different ways. They've always been there, but&he...

Soooo it's my birthday! Or was. Or is? I guess technically it ended 5 hours ago. I never know when to say my birthday is. I used to say it was the day after Valentine's Day, the 15th. The 15th is in fact my real birthday. However, on my birth certificate it says my birthday…

I'm trying to stop overthinking things so much. It causes me to be stuck and never make a decision. I'm going to call this diary Oh Mylanta because it's the very first thing that popped into my head and so I'm rolling with it. Otherwise I would sit there for an hour thinking of a…

https://outofthefog.website/what-to-do-1/ A collection of ideas and responses to personality disordered behaviors that have worked well in most cases. The 3 "C's" Rule - The 3 "C's" rule is a mantra for abuse victims that says: "I didn't cause it, I can't cure it and I can't control it." The 51% ...

You think so? I should call him? I don’t know. [embed]https://open.spotify.com/track/5puU24G3lHVsUXPAWW2ZpV?si=hkjjmF5qROKc0GLzzNMbrg&context=spotify%3Asearch%3Amake%2520it%2520rain[/embed] I am gonna have to spend time around the ex tonight. My stepson only has 2 basketball games left and I ...

Frank brought our daughter home today, I let my guard down. I wasn’t paying attention and he made it in the house. My baby was sleeping and he had my stepson with him. I was getting out of my head and into my body; I was dancing around the living room. My stepson came in…

I’m not sure why, but I find myself not being able to look directly outside through the window. It’s blue and grey, and quite gorgeous as the world wakes up. I’ve been awake since 5:12 a.m. myself. I’m reading a book I don’t remember the name of, but it inspires me to type out my…