#ghosting

I feel more marginally awake than I was in the last entry.. ha. So, today is Monday, boring ol' Monday... I have this feeling in my gut that I'm going to ghost the Heartful group. I ghost church all the time, mostly bc I feel very uncomfortable... like I am not Christian and I don't…

Did he really think i would make him choose? Why can't he be in all our lives? Why is he turning it yo something i refuse to budge on and why tf am i even crying over it, anymore? My AE said enough this morning and he hasn't said a word, since. So, maybe he's…

Its really a learned behavior and its kinda sickening. Its not that he ghosted me, but that he also ghosted our daughter. its all so heartbreaking and it isnt necessary. But i get the fight or flight attitude. Its something he needs to deal with. But in the meantime i broke down about 5 times&hel...