#heartbreak

It's amazing to see how someone's feelings towards another can change so drastically. Reading the notes that I've written once makes me realize that that version of me looks and sounds so in love until the point of blindness. Now that the spell wore off, I am starting to see the reality of things...

Why was I so depressed in Jr. High and High School?  It was because, thanks to Uncle Jack, my sexuality was confused, and I was wanting other boys.  But still, I wanted to love and be loved. However, if I pursued that, I would be so ashamed I could not face my family again.  I…

You stopped saying goodnight. And I stopped sleeping. I was kept awake with the thoughts of maybe I was overthinking. Maybe you didn't want me. Maybe you didn't need me. Maybe you didn't love me. Maybe you never did. Maybe it was me being naive, but when it started it felt amazing. It made me&hel...

‘Narcissistic discard.’ I’ve come across the term in one of my late night scrolls, those times when I was still trying to understand what happened. We were fine and suddenly I was left hanging. No clue if there was something I did wrong. Nothing. I wasn’t ghosted, but I was lied to. I couldn’t fi...

When I found out that he's not really divorced, I knew I had to stop seeing him. I knew that at some point that what we have will have to end. That if not him, it's me that has to let go. Because I know what I want and I know what I've been praying…

I've been thinking of writing an entry since late last year but I had problems with the VPN app I was using to be able to access the site. Now, I am using a different one and hope it won't have the same problem as the one before cause it'll again be a waste of…

How? How could something so amazing turn into something so heart breaking? You were everything to me. A 5 year marriage. To the absolute love of my life. Everything was perfect. You truly opened my eyes to what I thought love truly was. You changed my views on having children. And you gave me the...

I used to think your eyes were like flaming sunsets. Glistening like the comfort of a campfire. Like the flames, always full of misdirection. Or maybe it was just all in my imagination. Maybe it was your manipulation leading me on, like a predator leads its prey. I would've loved you still, if yo...

My heart is bleeding 💔 I didn’t know my heart could feel this type of pain but the moment he said I love you but I don’t love you the same as I once did, my entire world shattered. I’m broken mentally, spiritually and emotionally… I pray on most days not to wake up just…

I told him, "I don't wanna feel shitty when I leave your house," because I thought a night of fling would do me good. But boy was I wrong. To which he replied, "Well it's not like I want you to feel shitty. Jesus!" and he sounded annoyed. Wait a minute, I'm not asking for…