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January 17, 2021
THE AFTER-MATH I'm happy and relieved to not be obsessing over my backstabbing ex and so-called-hater-ex-bestfriend. Yes  I wanna jump up and down and sashay about the peace I feel. But you know what else I feel? BOREDOM. Oh no, I have hobbies. I'm talking about emotional boredom. The kind of bor...
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