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• If my trauma could speak

  February 2, 2021

  I want nothing from them and yet the thoughts keep coming up. They keep circling. The same shit, nothing new, over and over, every day, every hour. When will it ever stop? I don't want Frank, don't even wanna talk to him, to explain to him that I'm not evil and to prove buncha other…

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• How to not give a fuck

  January 28, 2021

  How to feel comfortable within other people's discomfort? Not in other's discomfort but within it. We're not sociopaths, there's a reason we're wired in a way to feel and be in attunement to each other. And other people's shitty feelings shouldn't be of zero care to us if we truly care about thos...

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• SPEED SPEED SPEED

  January 17, 2021

  THE AFTER-MATH I'm happy and relieved to not be obsessing over my backstabbing ex and so-called-hater-ex-bestfriend. Yes  I wanna jump up and down and sashay about the peace I feel. But you know what else I feel? BOREDOM. Oh no, I have hobbies. I'm talking about emotional boredom. The kind of bor...

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• No drama mama

  January 16, 2021

  Life is boring when you have no drama. Is it why I choose to hold on to it? Til my hands fuckin bleed but dont you dare let go of that fuckin rope! In it, is all your existence and no space for mercy. Because mercy will remind you that your life is simply dull…

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• Fine is another word for boiled fish

  January 16, 2021

  “What else could they do—with that sort of character?” “Throw out your misperceptions and you’ll be fine. (And who’s stopping you from throwing them out?) Marcus Aurelius – Meditations. “Never say of anything, “I have lost it”; but, “I have returned it.” Is your child dead? It is returned. Is you...

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• It would of never worked

  January 14, 2021

  His ego is too big. He's a great white shark that starves himself to death. He runs away from problems, he sabotages anything and everything because he doesn't think he deserves it. He thinks he only deserves pain and that's why he drinks too much and never admits that he has a drinking problem. ...

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• Trust is a strong word

  January 13, 2021

  Will I be able to trust? Trust in way that fills secure, legit and safe. Trust in a way that I know I won't get betrayed. Wouldn't that be the nicest feeling ever? Trust is for the naive, for the ones who never had their hearts broken, for the ones who haven't been stabbed in…

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• Charlie

  December 29, 2020

  I was in love with a narcissist when I was 19. I woulda died for him.☠ Charlie was one of a kind, cool cat. But something was off when  I first got to know him; he seemed hang up on his ex and he was acting like "love doesn't exist" attitude. He cheated on me,…

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• Relationship RED Flags – Pluto version

  December 25, 2020

  Poor Communicator-🕵 📞they keep a lot of secrets and can't tell you what they feel, maybe you think it's a shyness problem so you try to figure out their feelings for them. Are you a problem solver? Like to solve mysteries? This one's for you. Down the line when shit hits the fan and the…

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