#misery

Tears start to slowly fall from my face. I'm exhausted keeping up with day to day tasks. It physical hurts to get out of bed. I would say that it is because my body is sore but I know that it would just be another lie I tell myself to keep going. It's like my…

These last 4 months have been extremely tough on my heart and mental state. I have been suffering from cognitive dissonance. To those of you who don't know what cognitive dissonance means, it is basically having two thoughts that contradict each other and makes it difficult for you to come to a c...

ii had a notion so i came here but with some effort i came here! how to explain? on a recent night i conceived some sorry conceit - a hope. i gleaned the thinnest hope from nothing .. it is just that it pitifully occurred to me that all the sorrow might lift, this long…

I woke up at 5 am, turned over in bed to see Patrick facing me with his mouth wide open and a piece of dip sitting under his tongue, and on the roof of the spit bottle still half-fallen over in his hand. The most unattractive time in Pat's life is his slumbers.  I wish…