#nothing

All I can think about is the fact that no matter what I do, I am not enough. I have struggled so much these last 6-8 months. I have been so terribly depressed. The worst part is when you admit to it. I'm sick of seeing these stupid TikTok/FB etc trends of "mental health education" when…

When I was really writing and filling up Composition notebooks (That I have since thrown away, because I'm stupid) music and some TV shows were what would spark the Creativity within. Songs to this day still speak to me and I will hear something from  during those times and be transported back to...

So I decided to pay to keep this. Now though how much will I actually write is the question. I don't know if I ever said back in the Beginning about thisisbyus.com, a site that I Frequented a lot years ago. Heck there are a few people from there that I'm still friends with on…

Most days, I feel nothing. I don’t feel anything and I am so bored. I am so bored of waking up and feeling nothing while everyone around me is drowning in a cascade of emotions. I try to fill the void, I buy things I like, I don’t like them, I hurt myself, it doesn’t…

there are 19 minutes left for my lecture to start. having a rough beginning in the morning is so hard to complete your day happily. sitting in a class, no lights, only the sun entering through the small holes from the curtain, having my headphones and listening to music. and wondering how to star...

I have done nothing the last 2 days but watch marvel movies, clean and take of 10 baby chicks, 2 of which keep trying to fly out of their coop. Yeah, we are regular farmers over here. We have 1 laying hen, 2 pre-teen hens and 10 baby chicks. Now add my 4 kids, 2…