#relapse

I smoked in studio yesterday. I walked in studio with the producer who is married. The main producer I work with is married too. There I was, in studio, with two married men. But of course, I stay wearing baggy clothes and never remotely flirting. I always conduct myself in a classy manner. I mad...

Relapse 14/10/22 I had a shot (injected) ice today. I never really was into shooting ice up I usually smoke it but don't have a pipe at home but had syringes from my herion relapse the day before yesterday. I hate ice it makes me so so anxious and with my chronic anxiety disorder it…

Last night, while mindlessly scrolling through my facebook feed I come across a local video gaining publicity. The video is of a woman, possibly overdosed in a car. The man taping her is violently shaking her, her neck bending back and forth while screaming "wake up you junkie fuck", and complain...

When I signed up using my email address it was for my other, private diary. I even have the email with the diary name, so I know for a fact it was my other diary, but somehow my main diary wound up connected to it. I have no idea how, but I'm glad. My other…

⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ TW/CW : Self Harm ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️   I’m sorry. I’m just not that strong. I’m spiralling out of control, crashing hard. You can only blow a bubble so big before it pops and I’ve popped. I’m fighting the tide but the waves keep washing over me,...