#struggles

So it's been some time since I last wrote. I usually stop writing whenever something harmful slaps me in the face, but it's never that easy to quit. Writing for me is like breathing. It's something I do naturally every day in some capacity. I think it's a damn shame that good old-fashioned writin...

Today was a mixed bag. I did a little bit of cleaning and a little bit of mechanical work to try keep the trolls out of my personal space, lol. They're pretty determined to terrorize, though. I don't get it. Why force yourself into someone's life if they don't want you there? I will never…

I'm currently buzzing off of a teeny weeny airplane bottle of 100-proof rum. A store sold it to me by accident, and I quickly learned the difference, lol. It's very strong. Yes, I do drink from time to time. There's actually no verse that says we can't drink. The verse is against drunkenness. Mor...

What started it this time, I can't remember. It's always there, so when it rears its head, it's sometimes ambiguous as to its definite arrival, it's definite, "Go. Go." On a whim, on an early day in July, so a month ago, from my office computer I first looked up jobs that would be suitable…

I should probably try to get myself into writing blogs so that I could practice my writing skills. Cause if I don’t I might end up losing my touch after all. Life at the office nowadays is always so toxic. The people around us are 5-star a-holes. Not to mention the people who would always…

soooo i like a boy but the is that i am poc(person of color) and he is white but that is not tissue the thing is that he said the n word in the past but and his past mistakes was brought up by his ex and like it broke my heart because he and…

Today I can feel the weight of it Today I can feel the long-haul of the journey I can feel the desperation and the wanting Today I can feel the emptiness, that ringing in my ears that the silence brings I can feel the temptations the desires seeping out the sin of of my soul…

I am so tired of being tired of being tired. I feel like if the sentence above makes sense to you then you get the kind of tiredness, fatigue and exhaustion I’m referring to. It’s the kind that comes from the brain, not the body. I feel like even standing up is taxing because it’s…

I just need to empty out all the bullshit in my head. I’m going through some pretty severe depression and its partially because my partner, whom is in recovery lied about smoking weed, probably doing other things, where he’s been and why hes had to miss house meetings. Everytime this has ever occ...

I wrote a lot in the past. I started up a small blog where only a handful of people would read what I had to say, it wasn't fancy or anything, just a blog on a free app where I would upload some pictures and upload my journal entry. A few people had reached out…