"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
Stye in my eye
These things are soooo annoying and painful. I never knew. I never had it until now. I had Lasik surgery few months back and now all of a sudden I got this painful shit and it is killing me. Of course, this happens when I have to travel for work, and it is sometimes so…
Taking time to breathe
Laying in the shower. Why? Because my therapist told me to. That’s it. Simple. She thinks I need more time. More me time. More self care. More relaxation. More breathing. I also turned my phone to silent. If I need me time I need silence. Right? My phone also told me it had some new…
Shattered
I always knew the day would come. I’ve dreaded it but knew it would come one day. The day my son’s kidney’s would fail him and the Day my cancer would return. I could have never imagined it would have happened at the same time. But, here we are. Both facing surgery and treatments for…
Money and Nightmares
Just another day in paradise. Sitting in my office job. My new client likes to not actually come in. So, we've got our 5th or 6th NCNS for enrollment. I may fit her in this week if she happens to call or email. I may not. My boss said to start only scheduling her once…
Nothing really
I’m a seriously grouchy person. Why? I have no idea. Just everything. I’m simply exhausted and I feel like this makes me simply angry. I’ve worked an insane amount the last 3 weeks. The tips are great but I know better. I know that at the end of a 3 week run I’m always over…
Update
Thanks everyone for the kind messages, I feel better now, I had to talk myself into believing there is so much more out there for me. Even if hope is still bleak I still have faith that the universe will come to my aid. I went out today, had a talk with my girlfriend who…
Downhill
I'm fucking spiralling, I don't know what to do. I can't sleep I can't eat I find it hard to breathe. I can't think straight. Why always me? Why? I'm fucking tired and there is no sign of hope, I'm tired.
Another day
So my girlfriend just broke up with me a few hours ago. I do love her but with my current situation I can't even blame her for wanting to leave. I feel really hopeless now, like I am having a full relapse after I had gotten a bit better. I don't know what to do…
Foster License Done. Hitting 5 Months with M.
It's been awhile. Sometimes I feel like writing daily, sometimes I want to pretend the things in life just aren't real. Guess, we've been in the not real stage for quite a bit now. Nothing has changed. Yet, everything has changed. We're fully licensed with Foster Care and still have M. A "few...
Follow up
I haven't dropped a note for a while, I am trying to get better. It's not like life has become so hopeful but then I think I still have some hope in me. I haven't been motivated to do anything or try anything new, some friends and family have reached out to see ways they…