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• 12/06/2013

  December 5, 2013

  There is so much going on around my head. SO much I need to do. Money, jobs, love, girls, work, god, life, living. there is nothing that seems to stick. I find myself sleeping to try and make all the thoughts just dissappear. even running doesn't help my head anymore. I constantly ...

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• 12/02/2013

  December 1, 2013

  I know it's wrong to wish someone into your life, but if there was at all someone to pray about its her. I Cannot and will not ever understand my mind or why I constantly want what I cannot have. I really wish life would just come together and make everything I do work. I want...

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• deperessed… again

  December 1, 2013

  what makes a man desperate? is it the lack of intimacy, is it the past relationships? what shapes a man and his confidence? These are questions I keep asking myself. Are your going crazy? is there something that is just holding you from what you want in life? The will is there...

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• 10/17/2013

  October 16, 2013

  I have to beg myself to get on here and type so that I don't post something on facebook about being sad or upset, or hell just generally upset about anything. I'm not allowed to be upset, or allowed to have problems. Last night was the perfect example of that. My buddy charlie came over...

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• Not allowed to be upset

  September 26, 2013

  Do you ever feel like you aren't allowed to be the friend that has problems? between all my friends the only one who actually has asked me if I was okay with all this stuff going on in my life was Bruce from levels. I know Charle was here for me, but he was having troubles with…

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• 09/21/2013

  September 20, 2013

  live and die by your choices. You can't blame anyone but yourself if things don't come out the way you wanted. Work hard, but love more. Help your fellow man, and learn to make people smile. Forget race, forget age, forget any description you would put on another human being. You are a leader, no...

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• We all knew it was gonna happen

  September 19, 2013

  Robyn broke up with me, and I honestly don't really care. I feel like it opened my mind to go back to thinking about Amanda... What the fuck??? As if I couldn't get her out of my head enough.... I just wish I knew how she was doing. How her field work is going, how life is in…

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• problems

  September 14, 2013

  It's just one of those nights when I really didn't get out all that much, yet I feel like a lot happened.  Last night Charlie came over to hang out. It started getting into him being sad and upset about Sarah suggesting they took a break, and we tried talking about it to help him. ...

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• 09/10/2013

  September 9, 2013

    sometimes I feel like my life just couldn't get any more bizzare. Sometimes I wish I could wake up and be a different person with different feelings and emotions. Something about being 26 ,pot smoker, unable to work, and generally unhappy seems to be some of the worst things that could hap...

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