Adventure is out there

     Christmas is over, finals are over, and the house is once again a crazy mess from the lack of will to do anything to keep up with the crazy and the toys. It just is. I clean, and I clean, and then I have a toddler who dumps out everything, and viola, it…

It is finals week, I took 2 today and then will have 2 on Thursday. I am looking forward to the break. Not going to lie, I am so burntout, my house is a complete wreck and all in all I am exhausted.  You know what is exciting, my birthday is Friday! Friday the 13th…

Samara came to school with me today, she did well I suppose, she played on her gallaxy most of the time actually, well until we were looking at Eakins "The Gross Clinic" She did not like it she said my teachers were too serious.  I took her to chuck e cheese between classes, and it...

I am struggling more and more with the dark thoughts creeping in and I am struggling too much to keep them out. I look around me, and the house is never clean enough, my grades never high enough. Samara and Sabastian are in near constant therapy, and just this last week Sirris managed to get…

I have good news! You wanted to hear something good from me right? Well, I got my letter in the mail today! I have offically been accepted into Graduate school. I will  be completeling the mental health counseling program, and by the end I will have my lisecne in the state, so that is pretty...

I have to say I hate ptsd, and the men in my life who have it. I have been continually disappointed, and hurt, and I feel depleted by those stupid little letters that have altered and changed my life in such a big big way. Living with this illness makes me so angry, what makes…

 It is Vetran's day and by golly it makes me grumpy. I don't want everyones false sincerity, or to simply like a facebook post about today, or to tell me they get it because their dead grandpa's cousins neighbor served. If you are the spouse/parent/child we'll talk. If not thank you for your...

We survived yesterday, barely but did  I blew up at him, he defeneded him self, and I am sorry, he is still wrong.  I have been so tired, I have been up for days with a sick baby, he has rosella, and a sinus infection. Wasn't sleeping, had to go over night for a stupid…

              I have a rare moment to myself to sit and type a moment.  My interview went well yesterday, I think it went well at least. I am anxious and I will be until the time comes for me to actually get that letter in the mail with my…

My halloween was pretty good how about yours? I went to school rocking a beehive and spider web make-up, I felt pretty good about it. IN the art building, I looked in place, in the main building not so much.  SO, I have news, like big news I am not supposed to know news! My…