Recent Entries

• 4 Pillars

  November 3, 2021

  I don't know what is going on with me.  I may be depressed.   Most likely it is due to lack of exercise...  That always makes me feel better, but I am healing from  a groin injury I suffered in a soccer game a few weeks back... so maybe I'll be better once I can start…

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• Persistence of Memory

  September 21, 2021

  If you lived everyday exactly the same, your life would be over in a blink of an eye.  Your brain wouldn't store any real memories which means there would be massive gaps in your timeline.  One day you are a little kid, the next an old man. Now, what if life was just a simulation? …

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• Can’t Relate

  September 21, 2021

  I think I need to learn that whatever I think, the mainstream population is most likely going to be the complete opposite.  I've always felt like an outsider when it comes to social interactions.  I mean I get along just fine with people.  I have always felt that people just don't get me, or I&he...

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• The world is FUBAR

  August 30, 2021

  I often wonder if I have anger management issues.  I am just so done with the world.  Ever since I was a kid we were told about climate change and the need to reduce, reuse and recycle.  I feel I have held up my end of the bargain whenever I could.  But these god damn…

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• The Internet

  August 29, 2021

  I've also got exceedingly frustrated at the Internet.   When I first jumped on the Internet back in 1995, it was a land of optimism and hope.  It was to bring everybody together.  It was going to solve the problems of the world.    The Internet from 1995 - 2006 was like a library, with endless&he...

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• Isolation

  August 28, 2021

  It has been awhile since I have written.  I just didn't feel the need to write anymore... So what's new?  Well, I am over 3 years sober now.    I successfully climbed the highest mountain in Africa (Mount Kilimanjaro) in Feb of 2020.  Got home from that trip and then world went into lockdown abou...

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• Under the Influence

  February 14, 2018

  I had a personal victory last Friday.  I was really worried about this day.  My work was having an event, and work events ALWAYS have free drinks.  Put a Big Mac in front of an obese foodie, and they are going to eat it.  Put free beer in front of a problem drinker, they are…

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• The Otherside Of The Coin…

  February 8, 2018

  I was looking at my old journal.  I see the last entry I had written was back in 2010 announcing to the community that I was going to become a father.  My daughter will be 7 in a few months.  Everybody always writes about what they love about being a parent.  So what I am…

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• Game Time

  February 6, 2018

  Odd to think, I started writing on OD close to 20 years ago.  It disappeared for awhile, but I also disappeared. It's funny to think what has changed.  My life has changed sure... but my personality hasn't really.  I still struggle with addiction.  I have quit for years at a time, but then go bac...

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