#broken

I can't tell you how angry I am some days. The last few days my anxiety has been through the roof and I couldn't put my finger on what was causing it - then it hit me. I have PTSD. For over two years, our life has been stuck between extremes of so many emotions…

I told him, "I don't wanna feel shitty when I leave your house," because I thought a night of fling would do me good. But boy was I wrong. To which he replied, "Well it's not like I want you to feel shitty. Jesus!" and he sounded annoyed. Wait a minute, I'm not asking for…

He says or rather he DOESN’T say things that really causes issues between us. When he should be saying the right or wrong thing he doesn’t say anything all. Which to me by not saying anything means I wouldn’t like his answer. I’m tired of this feeling. Tired of feeling not good enough. I’m tired&...

Yesterday I pretty much kept myself busy. Didn't want to think about last year but it was a constant thought. No worries I was good. I didn't bring it up and I definitely didn't lash out at him. I was feeling a bit under the weather and ended up crashing pretty early anyway. He and…

Trying to get by this weekend is harder than I thought it would be. The constant thought of what happened this time last year weighs heavily on my mind and my heart. I'm doing my best though. I haven't brought it up and I haven't lashed out. He knows this would be hard for me.…

So this morning he brought to my attention that today Is the day we started talking again 4 years ago. But after last year this is no longer our “anniversary”. He was talking to a girl (almost 20 years younger than him) behind my back. This time last year he could care less about our…

Hello Everyone,             Well for starters I would like to take a brief moment and introduce myself!  My name is Patsy, I turned 37 years old yesterday (8/29/1984) woot woot Virgo! I have been at war within myself and battling my own demons on top of soul wrenching, body crippling,…

My path has never been clear. I’ve waited for so many sign even when some have been in front of me. Failing in love has been my biggest regrets. I’ve waited for friends to give me their indirect permission to be happy and I’ve wasted my time thinking their approval would be what I need…

In the dark of the night, in the early morning, I’m left alone with all my fears, and insecurities, and doubts, and broken promises to myself, and all the little pieces of me that have broken off from the events of the day. I try to pick them all up and put myself back together…

For 10 weeks I've been stuck. My life got flipped upside down and turned around in February. I was sitting at work, a really chill shift 11pm-7am. Around 4 in the morning I received a message. The message I received "Hi, I think we know the same guy, Marcus. Just to let you know, he…