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Today I realized that God could possibly be punishing me for that abortion I had, I'm mad with myself bc I feel alone as I did when I got it. At the time I just started my new job and got pregnant carelessly and was scared. I truly didn't get a chance to be happy…

Tomorrow is part two of my music video. The first half was shot underwater but tomorrow will be the dance scene. I’m going to be very careful tomorrow because the last thing I want is a sprang ankle, cut or bruise. We only have one body, and I’m going to be gentle with mine. I…

I had the most perfect day. Let me tell you about it. I woke up from 7 hours of sleep. I went to the 99 cent store and bought snacks for the crew tomorrow for my music video. Then I got a Starbucks latte. Then, I went to McDonald’s and got an McGriddle value meal…

I just woke up from another nightmare. I had like 4 girls and 3 guys over. We stayed in a house rental for a fun getaway. I didn’t know any of them except for my real life friend, Paul, whose been my homie fr fr since over 5 years. In my dream, something made me…

In addition to my previous entry, where I discussed Duality as Christic emanation, I would like to add the following. I discussed the nature of the Law "As Above, so Below" but I wanted to add a nuance to my reasoning. There is an aspect of this Law that depicts the principle of attraction. There...

I have been contemplating the matter of Duality and Non-Duality. Did you know that the Absolute is Relative? As a matter of interesting fact, when I heard this truth, everything came to peace. There was no need to boggle on it further, as I felt the swift switch between the Two States as a Parado...

It’s not that hard once you REALLY feel the heart of the Trinity emanating consciousness, existence and Love. Then you realise despair drags you down, it feels funny to stick to it, and unless you have a very deep trauma that needs some extra healing (which we do receive from our guides in the mo...

I have been thinking about it ... Doomsday.. will people learn... what will happen, what turn will humankind take.. and now I've stopped. If this, if that. No point in trying to catch the sands of time, as they will always shift and slip away. To understand the future and the purpose, is to know&...

What happens to me is that I always create scenarios in my head as to how to handle everything possible that could happen all by myself. It's exhausting. I don't want anything handed over to me ready, for free, no matter how much I complain. However, it may backfire as a useless source of worries...

We were born to carry out our life mission. There is an aspect of it that will open our eyes towards new meanings that we've missed. There is an aspect that helps us grow up as a spirit, based on how we react and handle situations. There is an aspect where we serve the global…