#lost

Suddenly I feel like I'm drowning, and I can't get out. There are so many things on my mind, and I'm having a hard time expressing/communicating them. The crazy thing is that it is literally like 5-6 different major topics that would break down into a million little things. I'm not sure which to ...

Here I sit…. Just found this site and not even really sure how it works. So…….  Lets begin I feel mixed feelings on life,  where, how , whats next…. All of it So stand by…. As i un-ef my thoughts we will continue thanks for lookin

What started it this time, I can't remember. It's always there, so when it rears its head, it's sometimes ambiguous as to its definite arrival, it's definite, "Go. Go." On a whim, on an early day in July, so a month ago, from my office computer I first looked up jobs that would be suitable…

Hey all,   I ready don't even know why I'm here, what to write, but seriously... I hit rock bottom, not addiction or anything, but psychologically , I'm ready messed up!   The fact that I'm being abused psychologically since i was a kid and thank God i was smart enough to realize that f...

It's 2 am and we just watched Shrek(2). Our cat knocked over an entire glass of water. You cleaned it up, I watched. I watched the whole movie watching you. Soaking up the moments. Trying to press record in my brain for when you're gone. I know I have big day tomorrow and I should…

Another day, another roundabout of shenanigans. As the hour progress, I do not. It seems as if every marking hour, minutes I am withheld. There is a sort of demonic laugh as the clock moves its maniacal hands as if to tick me off... and not in the touches of humour way. Is my worth…

This is my first entry, I just felt like writing. Lately, I have been feeling lost and have been feeling like I have not been myself for the past year. I just want to vent my feelings out and just type it out. Last year I was impacted by COVID in the worst way ever,…

Who am I… These days I’m not really sure, I used to be fun to be around.  I used to be a laugh and a first to the party, last to leave kinda lass.  Now the idea of leaving the flat to go as far as the safety of the car stresses me out to…

Everyone does it. We tell lies if we want to admit it to ourselves or not. I tell lies every single day. I lie when I say I've had enough. That this time will be different. I'm going to stand up for myself and walk away for good. I lie when I say I won't…

I've been feeling depressed lately. Things that I wanted to happen, didn't go as planned. Tried my best but it wasn't enough. No matter how hard I try, no matter how many times I do it, I still don't succeed. I'm always sitting all day, scrolling in front my laptop, only to waste time. I…