#lost

Everyone does it. We tell lies if we want to admit it to ourselves or not. I tell lies every single day. I lie when I say I've had enough. That this time will be different. I'm going to stand up for myself and walk away for good. I lie when I say I won't…

I've been feeling depressed lately. Things that I wanted to happen, didn't go as planned. Tried my best but it wasn't enough. No matter how hard I try, no matter how many times I do it, I still don't succeed. I'm always sitting all day, scrolling in front my laptop, only to waste time. I…

I feel like it's a good thing to keep writing a diary... 1.  so I can document my life for some reason and 2, so I can get rid of all the thoughts in my head.  Lately I feel plagued with thoughts, more than usual, negative ones, existential ones, confused ones, positive ones, it's too…

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One thing that I didnt realize until yesterday, I have completely lost myself and become another person. Ever since getting with my new boyfriend Ive been acting more and more like a toddler, i have tantrums and cry all the time. I used to be so chill and collected, but now i cant keep any…

Not the one to usually use things like this but I need to let it out somewhere... I don't even know where to begin my life has been a total roller coaster seeming to go down a big hill and not stopping any time soon. I'm young (19) and still got a lot ahead of…

So this morning he brought to my attention that today Is the day we started talking again 4 years ago. But after last year this is no longer our “anniversary”. He was talking to a girl (almost 20 years younger than him) behind my back. This time last year he could care less about our…

I'm on my last year before I graduate and go to university, and thus year is going to be awful since I have to make a bunch of essays that I have no inspiration or motivation in. I also have to do a bunch of exams at the end of the year. I feel like…

I’m struggling. I feel like my life has become one big, black void of days and nights that repeat on an endless loop. I feel lost. Where is my purpose? What is the point? With every rising sun, I wake. I force myself out of bed, drag my feet; “Ok. Let’s get through another day.”…

Hello Everyone,             Well for starters I would like to take a brief moment and introduce myself!  My name is Patsy, I turned 37 years old yesterday (8/29/1984) woot woot Virgo! I have been at war within myself and battling my own demons on top of soul wrenching, body crippling,…