#lost

One thing that I didnt realize until yesterday, I have completely lost myself and become another person. Ever since getting with my new boyfriend Ive been acting more and more like a toddler, i have tantrums and cry all the time. I used to be so chill and collected, but now i cant keep any…

Not the one to usually use things like this but I need to let it out somewhere... I don't even know where to begin my life has been a total roller coaster seeming to go down a big hill and not stopping any time soon. I'm young (19) and still got a lot ahead of…

So this morning he brought to my attention that today Is the day we started talking again 4 years ago. But after last year this is no longer our “anniversary”. He was talking to a girl (almost 20 years younger than him) behind my back. This time last year he could care less about our…

I'm on my last year before I graduate and go to university, and thus year is going to be awful since I have to make a bunch of essays that I have no inspiration or motivation in. I also have to do a bunch of exams at the end of the year. I feel like…

I’m struggling. I feel like my life has become one big, black void of days and nights that repeat on an endless loop. I feel lost. Where is my purpose? What is the point? With every rising sun, I wake. I force myself out of bed, drag my feet; “Ok. Let’s get through another day.”…

Hello Everyone,             Well for starters I would like to take a brief moment and introduce myself!  My name is Patsy, I turned 37 years old yesterday (8/29/1984) woot woot Virgo! I have been at war within myself and battling my own demons on top of soul wrenching, body crippling,…

Ugh such a good day turned into a negative one. Sometimes i get so angry in myself for having such a forgiving heart. People will show who they really are but being dumb i choose to ignore it. Causing me to get hurt in the end. My family and friends told me this relationship wasnt…

So I didn’t write for a few days. I wish I could claim I was busy. But I spend most of my day sleeping. I don’t fall asleep until 4am and I end up sleeping until 9am, I get up and eat so I can take my meds, then I go back to bed til…

I can’t smoke any more cigarettes because my chest hurts and now i don’t know what to do. I need to use the bathroom and i can’t get up because it’s too cold outside of my bed.  I guess this is what they call a rock in a hard place.  Or something like that.  I…

They keep asking me why don't I talk? Why don't I open up? Why don't I say what I think? I can't. It's hard; really, really hard. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that my thoughts will be too much for others. I'm afraid they won't understand me. In fact, I know they won't understand me. I…